just another CRUSH. :)

you know that feeling.... when your crush looks at you and then.. OMG! your heart beats so fast that you feel like you're gonna have a nervous breakdown and then you can't stop smiling and you're shaking coz he's looking at you! GOSH!! i know! i really can't forget that day.. when i met his eyes and he smiled at me. :"> i felt like i was going to have a heart attack.. LOL.. i just can't move on! i feel like going there everyday just to see him.. :D i always want to look at him. HAHA! anyway, that day was one of my happiest day ever. as in EVER!! and what's the name??.. J.E. love it. ♥

PS.. at least say hi when we pass by. okay?! :P

Poem: You. :">

`the way you look and stare

when you run your fingers through your hair,

i love it, it takes my breath away

just smile and you make my day.. :">

`i hear you playing the guitar

you're just my favorite rock star,

you sing and my heart sink

i just die when i saw you wink.. :">

-- my poem.! i wrote this last month coz i was inspired by my crush. :) i really love everything he does. guess i really like him and this is not complete, it has 7 stanzas but i just shared my favorite lines. :)) hope you like it. :D

i miss you. =((

i really really do.. i miss your name, your smile, your voice, your hands, your face, your smell, your eyes, your jokes, your messages, your notes, your handwriting, your shirt, your stories, your hugs.. i miss the way you look at me, the way you walk with me, the way you smile at me, the way you hold my hand, the way you make me smile, the way you tease me, i miss everything we used to do! =( i miss you! everything about you! how i wish you were still mine. that you're still a part of me. now i promise that if ever you come back, i will never ever hurt you and i'LL LOVE YOU TiLL MY LAST BREATH. i PROMiSE!!! ♥ ♥

iLyLADY27 ♥ ♥

since you've been gone. :(

`yah i admit it.. i really miss you.. duhh.!! isn't it that obvious??.. are you numb?.. tsk.! kidding.. haiSst.. i hope we can move back time.. the time when we were still together.. the time when we still love each other.. it was my fault, if i just gave myself time to realize what your worth was, guess i'm not blaming myself now.. anyway.. what's done is done.. we can't get it back and make it right.. so sad i missed the chance.. whoo.. so much drama, i just want to let it out.. ^o^

APRiL o1, 2o1o. =))

it's my grandma's death anniversary. we went in loyola memorial park to visit her and pray. ;) ;) the whole family was there. we ate, prayed, and talked about so many things.. we also bonded with our cousins. (miss them so much) hMm.. we're also enjoying or holy week. anyway.. so much to tell you when 5 comes. ;) :)

sad. :(

i hate feeling this way. :( the feeling of being left out.. no one cares. no one to talk to. no one to listen. :( and i hate telling myself i'm alright, when the truth is i'm not fine. :( :(

saturday. :(

- finals is coming.. whoOo.. then vacation is here, but i'M kinda not excited. don't know why.. :( iNis din dahiL di ako mkakapunta sa birthday ni kambal.. huhu. ;( anyway.. di din ako sumama kila meme. nood daw cNe.. wAaAa.. what am i doing ba??.naiinis ako sa sarili.. di ko n nbibigyan ng tyM ang mga friends ko.!! haiSst..

confused. T_T

hMm.. i don’t know what to do.. cos i have this friend who told me that he likes me.. actually he’s my ex.. we were seeing each other these past few days because of his friends.. they always invite me to watch movies, go malling and to go to their school and i just can’t say no.. they even asked me ‘pwede bang ibalik nyo ang nakaraan??..’ i just smiled and didn’t know what to answer.. and everytime i think about that question, i tell myself that i won’t hang out with them again so i can avoid him. but everytime they ask me out, uh oh, i always say yes.. :( haiSst. i hate this feeling, i mean, he’s nice, smart, fun to be with.. but I DONT KNOW.. i can’t even talk to him about this, that i’m confused, coz whenever we are talking, he always say that he’s happy, he tells me that he’s willing to wait.. :( wAaAa.. what to do???

27 forever.=))

 

`i love everything about you.. your hair, your dimples, your smile, your hands, your lips, your laugh, your jokes, your friends, your attitude, your voice, your eyes.. and everything about you.

27 forever.=))

retreat ;) ;)

we had our retreat last feb 25-26 at SPC Vigil House in Taytay.. =)) it was a great experience.. we left school at around 8 in the morning. we arrived at the vigil house 9 o'clock..we had our first conference then snack and we arranged our things in our rooms.. we had conference, sharing, confession, and other things.. we ended our first day by praying at the chapel.. my roommates were joi and nikki. we talked about so many things and ended up with 'ghosts' just what father boyax said.. face your fears.. xD at first we can't sleep thinking about that.. but time went by, we didn't notice that it was already 5 in the morning.. second day was tiring.. we packed up our things.. we had a mass and pray the rosary.. by 3 pm, we were getting ready to go home.. they give back our cellphones, cameras and other stuff so we can have picture takings and call our parents.. that two day retreat was great.. we learned so many things.. as we leave the vigil house, we were so tired.. slept at the bus and even became dizzy.. we arrived at school at around 5 pm.. ^o^

`wag maxadong mabaet.. bka ma-fall ako. xD xD

waha.. bkit ganun??.. am bait2 nya saken.. yan tuLoy.. i'M starting to think. hha. =)) i can't say that he changed kxe dati ganun n tLaga xa. there were times na parang am bait2 nya, concern n concern, but there were also times na di xa ngpaparamdam.. hmm.. i'm so confused. =/ haisst.. i hate this feeling.. gus2 ko n makasiguro.. hMm.. please help me. ;(

ate anne's 19th birthday. ;) ;)

we had fun eating cake last night.. akaLa ni ate un ung pinaka maLungkot nyang bday, but when we surprised her.. un daw pala best bday nya. ;) :) picture dito. picture don.. hha. xD anyway.. the party continues on sunday with our relatives.. hMm.. ^o^

last week. ;)

last week was great. so many things happened. ;) ;)even though i had a not so good monday. tSk.! xD we watch at PETA. `si juan tamad, ang dyabLo at ang 5000 boto.. it was fun. the actors were magnificent. ;) ;) i had fun watching them. ;) JT was aLso cute. hMm. =P saturday, we attended famiLy day at RCM. it was whole day, imagine?.. we waited there for so long.. but that's ok. ;) we brought goldilocks. we ate jollibee.. foodtrip. laughtrip. sountrip. lakad trip din. hha. xD kuLet nga ni yana-yan. ^o^ after that. we went in recto church. my uncLe attended BBS. and again, we waited there for soooo long. but it's ok again coz he brought us foods.. ;) ;) it's just it was so hot there. T_T haiSst.. what a week. and now it'S vaLentine's day. ;) wLa ko date. hha. =)) and what happened to my wish that he wouLd ask me out tonight??. =(( hMf.! yah, let's just enjoy the day. god bLess. ^o^

i miSs you. =(

what a day. so tiring. T_T haiSst. anyway.. i shouLd be happy no matter what. =)) hMm, happy birthday to him..

and i miSs my schooL, i miSs my oLd cLassmates, i miSs my service, i miSs gate 2, i miSs math lessons, i miSs boring hours, i miSs lunch break under coca coLa umbreLLa, i miSs drafting, i miSs prograMs, i miSs our `favorite hagdan.. i miSs my sectiOn, i miSs ate guard, i miSs research, i miSs cramming, i miSs exams, i miSs mondays, i miSs YOU.. in short...... i MiSS HiGH SCHOOL.. ='( i miSs everything about RCM.!

i miSs the first day of schooL when got loSt and miSsed my first cLass.. i miSs the day when we met.. i miSs the day when we get to know each other.. i miSs the chattiNg.. i miSs my first frieNd.. i miSs our first program.. i miSs my first bestfrieNds.. i miSs sampaguita, i miSs inteL, i miSs first year.. :(

i miSs new frieNds.. i miSs friday reading in engLish.. i miSs the day when you first toLd me that it was me.. i miSs biology cLass.. i miSs your notes.. i miSs vaLues presentatioNs.. i miSs being the highest in math.. i miSs larra's house.. i miSs may ann'S house.. i miSs marc's house.. i miSs may ann's angeLs.. i miSs top 3.. i miSs riverbanks.. i miss bike.. i miSs second year. :(

i miSs whoLe day cLasses.. i miSs new cLassmates.. i miSs 5300.. i miSs faiLing geometry(hha).. i miSs 3rd fLoor.. i miSs 5th row girLs.. i miSs sta. lu&robin.. i miSs kiLet's house.. i miSs fiLipino.. i miSs chem.. i miSs research.. i miSs kulitan.. i miSs `share2 pra soLve2.. i miSs kikays.. i miSs banahaw.. i miSs confessions.. i miSs lovenotes.. i miSs fieLd trip.. i miSs braceLet from hiM.. i miSs iyakan on the phone.. i miSs pieces of advice from marc&larra.. i miSs the first day they teased us<3 ..="">

i miSs oLd cLassmates.. i miSs transfereeS.. i miSs greeN.. i miSs reportiNg.. i miSs pLay.. i miSs rock jam.. i miSs kwik2.. i miSs libre.. i miSs luNch break.. i miSs other sectiOn.. i miSs mapeh cLassmates.. i miSs 5.45pm.. i miSs shake.. i miSs sya2.. i miSs my second.. i miSs overnight.. i miSs gaLa.. i miSs props making.. i miSs field trip.. i miSs recoLLectioN.. i miSs my third love.. i miSs 27.. i miSs every diSmissal.. i miSs pronouncement.. i miSs graduatioN.. i miSs fourth year.. :(

huhu. ='( i reaLLy miSs HiGH SCHOOL..what to do??.. haiSst.. but i need to move oN, gOodbye high schooL, goodbye RCM.! i miSs you guyS. =(( i think i need a reunion earLy next moNth. hha. xD xD

YOU

-* you were exactly what i needed.. that's true.. you were once the best thing that ever happened to me. ;) ;) you were my love then, you made me smile, you were always there for me, you seen me through my best and worst, you were perfect for me. ;) ;) but feelings change, people change. :( :( sometimes even if we don't want to do something, we can't do anything, we just need to do it and move on.! well, this is fate. this life. we just need luck, we just need to go on. ^o^

i stiLL. xD

'so bad i'M stiLL waiting.. hha..

but that's ok.. i know i wiLL find it soMeday

or it wiLL find ME. ^o^

just wait. and wait. and wait.!

there's nothing wrong in waiting,

it's just that maybe we're both waiting. :(

o2.o1.1o =))

yah. it's the first day of february. ;) 1st month of 2o1o had aLready passed. biLis tLaga ng panahon. xD anyway.. i hope this month will be great to me. ;) vaLentine's, birthdays, schooL.. haiSst. i hope so. ^o^ we aLso have our retreat on the last week of feb, hope it won't be posponed again, for the third time.. LOL. xD i'M excited.! 11 is aLso coming, hMm??.. what's the occasion??.. tsk.! oh, VALENTiNE'S DAY aLso, wouLd he ask me out??.. grr.. i HOPE so.!! =( hha.. is it ok if i'M the oNe to ask him out??.. waha.!! kidding.. hMm. 19 is my siSter's birthday.. then, 28 is the last day of feb. am biLis tLaga. ;) ;) so, let's make FEBRUARY a great month. ^o^

Poem: Since You've Been Gone

Now my days are lonely
My heart is empty,
Time has gone by slowly
And here I am missing you so badly...

Now I can't think straight
And I'm losing my faith,
I always think of you this late
I hate that I'm full of hate...
 
Now I'm longing for you
Coz I've always wanted you,
Guess this love is true
Coz I can't be anything without you...

But now you're gone
What have I done,
I did everything I can
Now my heart is empty since you've been gone...

When music speaks...

1.) Using song titles/artist, spell out your name

D-Daughtry
E-Evanescence
Z-Zombie

E-Edwin Mccain

L-Lifehouse

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?

- I've written a song about me. 


3) What song/s make you cry?

- Now and Then- by Blackmore's Night. 

4) What song/s makes you happy?
- Songs of Simple Plan and Jesse McCartney.

5) What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
 - My Goodnight Playlist.

6) How did Kurt Cobain's death affect you?
- hmm..

7) How many CD's do you own?

- Not sure.

8) How many CD clubs do you belong to?

- hmm?

9) What is the most embarrassing CD in your collection?

- Nothing.

10) Do you still listen to it?

- ^o^ 

11) What CD did you buy because you only liked one song? 
- When I buy Imake sure I love all the songs! 
 
 12) What CD did you buy that was a total waste of money?

-I don't buy CD I don't like.

13) How old were you when you first started getting into music?

- 10?

14) Can you play an instrument?

- I'm trying, you know?

15) What song(s) always get stuck in your head?

- New songs.

16) What song(s) can you just not stand?

- Some heavy rock songs.

17) What group should be banned from the music scene?

-Those not good?

18) Whose music do you listen to that no one else seems to like? 

- I guess everybody likes what I listen to.

19) What got you hooked on your all-time favorite group?

- OMG, Simple Plan? Aside from being so good and talented, Pierre is cute. :")

20) When was the last time you bought a cassette?

-Oh.

21). Rock/Pop

-Both!

22) Rap/R&B:

- R&B

23) Guitar/Piano:

- Seriously? I love both!

24) Video/Audio:

- Both. 


25) CD/Cassette:
- CD

 

26) Sing Along/Listen: 

- Singing along at the op of my lungs.

27) Acoustic/Electric:

-Sure both.

28) Do you ever buy CDs for the cover & the curiosity of the design on the CD itself?

- Haven't.

29) Do you focus more on the beat or the lyrics? -

- Usually on the beat, but the lyrics count too.

30) Do you listen to music you can relate to or just whatever sounds good?

- Music that I can relate to that sounds good.

31) Do curses in music bother you?

-No.

32) Do you turn it up when your favorite song comes on?

- Then I sing along.

33) Does any song remind you of events you've experienced?

- A lot a lot.

^o^

january. ;)

haiSst.. i have so many things to do, thank God midterm was over. ;) ;) but we stiLL have finaLs and a lot of FAs and CAs to do..wAaAaAa... T_T goOdluck na lng. =)) anyway..my dad was off to work, he's now back abroad..aNd we'll miSs him. :( i'M aLso excited for february.. so many events to atteNd. ;) ;) i aLso have a probLem with my PE cLass..hha. swimming, my goSh.. that's why i hate wednesday cos it'S our swiMming day. :( ;( whOoooo.. gueSs that'S aLL i can talk about right now. ;) ow, one more thing ..i miss him. =(

You're Not Like Anyone else :">

--yah, it'S true..there will always be one person who will appreciate the whole you. ;) ;) they know you more than anyone else, they love you more than you love them and they will care for you like no other. ^o^

Poem: In This Life

My life is living in a lie

And i always want to cry,

But whenever i try to go and fly

I realize that i don't need have to say goodbye...

Because in this life I found myself

And i realize that i don't need any help,

Just with my faith

All those lies will vanish and even hate...

And now I found you

A love that i will keep so true

In this life I found myself

In this life i found YOU.!