Distance Pls!

I said I wanted you to distance yourself a little, not to never talk to me again T__T

I don't know why I feel like this, but he makes me feel like I did something wrong. Like I slapped him on the face and told him to never talk to me again. We're like magnets now with same poles, we repel. When we see each other, it's automatic that one of us will take different way. Yeah! It's hard... if you know what I mean. It's like I'm a monster who will eat him if he goes near me. And I tell you, it feels bad to be avoided by someone :|

We're friends and all I want is for us to remain friends, forever. That's why I didn't want us to have something that I know might only ruin our friendship. It's better to be just friends where everything is simple, where we feel comfortable talking about everything. It's better not to have any commitment that might just mess up everything, it's better to be just the way we are.

 "Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people"

Now it's kinda hard since he's avoiding me and he's not talking to me. I feel guilty or whatever since I was the one who pushed him away. And what I thought might be better just turned out to be the worst thing for us. I wanted that, I believed it was right, but why do I feel this way? Why? I just wanna know coz right now, I'm so confused :| I don't know if it's just because I lost another good friend or it's something else.

I'm not sure

I don't know. 

I'm really confused!

 -083112

Love Story ♥

Cinderella had Prince Charming, Snow White also had Prince Charming, Aurora had Prince Philip, Ariel had Prince Eric, Belle had Prince Adam, Jasmine had Aladdin, Pocahontas even had Smith and Rolfe, Mulan had Li Shang, Tiana had Prince Naveen, Rapunzel had Flynn, and Me, well, I think my Prince just took a wrong turn but I know someday he'll definitely find his way to me. I hope! :">

So see, a princess should have her own prince. And because we are all princesses, I think we just have to wait for our own prince to come. Like Cinderella who waited for her prince to save her from her wicked step mother, like Snow White who waited for her prince to kiss her back to life, like Jasmine who waited for her prince to take her to a whole new world, like Rapunzel who waited for her prince to take her away from where she was hidden, like Mulan who waited for her prince to realize that she can be a hero too, like Ariel who waited for her prince to kiss her before the sun sets, like Belle who waited for her prince to realize that looks don't matter but the heart does, like Aurora who waited for her prince to kiss her up from her deep sleep, like Tiana who waited for her frog prince, and like Pocahontas who waited for her true love. I think we also have to wait for our prince to come. It may take forever but at least we are sure that he would be the right one for us. :">

 

So keep calm and let's just wait for our prince. It may take him another month or year or decade but don't lose hope. Coz I know and I'm certain that someday we'll all have the kind of love story we always wanted. Maybe not like Cinderella or like the the other Princesses but I know it would be amazing because the greatest love story of all is our own. :">

082712

Done. Finished. Completed. Accomlished.

I won't be talking about life, friendship, food or love tonight but I will tell you how happy I am because we finally finished our Thesis. How great is that? :))))))))))))))))))))))

We've been working on it since November last year and now, we already finished it. Finally! And I am happy because all throughout I did my best and my partner and I helped each other. We worked very hard for this paper and I can say that we really did a good job. We thought of giving up half way but thankfully we realized that if we will just do our best then we will make it and we can finish it. :)

I also want to thank those people who helped us especially to my family and friends who were very supportive, I guess. Lol. But really, I am thankful to all the people who have been a part of our study. And of course to God who have always been there since the first day we started until now. Thank You! :)

Gosh, I will surely miss those sleepless nights, revisions, and tabulations I did. It was tiring and stressful but I know it would be worth it because it will give us our future (grade) Tsk! I remember when we went to do our survey in Batangas and we found only few guests. We were really disappointed but at least we had fun at the beach and really enjoyed the food. And though we were there to conduct our survey, still it was a nice getaway and like a reward for us for being stressed because of that thesis. An overnight escape from our stressful everyday. :)

So I am very very happy and when I said happy I meant SUPER DUPER HAPPY! :) Finally I will be able to sleep at night again without worrying about our thesis. Thank you Lord! :)

Goodbye Thesis, and again Hello Sweetdreams!  ♥

The One That Got Away...

That one person you wish you'd never let go.
That person you had a lot to say.

That person you always hope would come back.

The one that got away...

Strangers. Hi. Hello. Friendship. Strangeness. Life. School. Friends. Overnights. Hangouts. Laughter. Admiration. Love. I Love You. Monthsaries. Everything. Forever. Secrets. Promises. Lies. Tears. Pain. Break-ups. Heartbreaks. Goodbyes. Memories. I Miss You. Moving On. Distance. Strangers.

 
 

082012

Nobody's Perfect

We don't have to be scared when someone sees our flaws because these flaws make everyone unique. And I believe that the greatest challenge in life is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences and mistakes and yet still sees the best in you.

But I am scared to let someone see these flaws in me. Yes I am

When they ask me why I still don't have a boyfriend, I always tell them that I'm not yet allowed or I still don't want to have one. But those are just lies. I can already have a boyfriend and yes I like to have one. But why do I tell them that? Because I'm afraid and I'm not confident that the other person will love me for who I am. :(

I don't have a perfect body,  my hair doesn't always stay on place, my skin is not white, I'm not tall, I don't have a dimple, I'm clumsy, I'm weird, I'm quiet, I don't like to party, I don't like to hang out, I always nag, I always cry. I'm not the kind of girl guys fall in love with and I'm certainly not the girlfriend type of a girl. I'm not that pretty, I'm not that smart, I'm not that sporty and I'm not someone guys always notice. :(

And even though I know that there will always be someone who will accept and love me for who I am, still I'm afraid to show him my flaws. I don't know why, I'm just afraid. And it's hard, really hard :'(

But I know that someday I will learn to open up to someone and accept that no one in this world is perfect. That it is okay to have flaws and it's just normal not to be perfect. I know it will  happen someday, eventually, when I finally found that someone I know will love and accept me for who I am. When I finally found a person who will accept that I am not perfect bur will still love me, forever. :">

 -081912

SIHAE LIVE IN MANILA :)

OMG! Siwon and Donghae at Trinoma last Aug 15 :)) Still can't get over. :"> I went with my sis Yana and we met with our friends May Ann and Wena and believe me there were a lot of people. As in A LOT of people. We arrived around 2pm and the crowd was already jam packed that we can't find a good spot anymore.We waited for 3 hours or more but it was worth it. When the door opened and everyone screamed, we were like OH-MY-GOD!

We also met with Ate Joy since she also likes Donghae because I introduced him to her, well :) We ran here, we ran there to have a good view and thankfully we did find one in front of the stage. Though the people in front of us were tall, still we were able to see SiHae :">

Gosh! I really won't forget that date, 08.15.12 ❤

They did some signing and Q&A and they sure knew how to make their fans scream out of kakiligan :"> They were asked if they know tagalog words and they said yes. Siwon said, "Philippines, maganda" and "Mahal kita" while Donghae said "Namimiss kita" Weren't they sweet? Hahaha :) There was also a cute little girl who took their autographs and I think Siwon kissed her cheek. *Dies :"> Gosh, how lucky was that little girl? :">

We also asked then to sing and dance but unfortunately they didn't. And we also shouted SS5 so I hope there would be SS5 :)))

It lasted for about 30 mins and for that 30 mins my sister were so hyper that she jumped with every word they said. Lol. We met up with May Ann and Wena after because we separated when the show started. We just talked about the event and we can't hide how happy we were. We took some pictures together then went home with super wide smiles on our faces :))

 Yana, May Ann & Me after the event :)

May Ann, Yana, Me & Wena :)

08.15.12

Be Your Everything by Boys Like Girls ♫♪

Four letter word  

But I don't have the guts to say it  

Smile 'til it hurts  

Let's not make it complicated  

 We've got a story  

But I'm about to change the ending  

You're perfect for me  

You're more than just a friend  

So we can just stop pretending now  

Gotta let you know somehow  

I'll be your shelter 

I'll be your storm  

I'll make you shiver 

I'll keep you warm  

Whatever weather  

Baby I'm yours  

Be your forever, 

be your fling  

Baby I will be your everything  

Baby I  

Baby I will  

Baby I will be your everything  

We used to say  

That we would always stick together  

But who's to say  

That we could never last forever  

Girl, got a question  

Could you see yourself with somebody else? 

'Cause I'm on a mission  

And I don't wanna share  

I want you all to myself right now  

And I just wanna scream it out  

I'll be your shelter  

I'll be your storm 

I'll make you shiver 

I'll keep you warm  

Whatever weather 

Baby I'm yours  

Be your forever, 

be your fling  

Baby I will be your everything 

Baby I  

Baby I will  

Baby I will be your everything  

No matter what you do  

I'll be there for you  

And every time you close your eyes  

I will be by your side 

'Cause every time you make me sing  

Baby I will be your everything  

I'll be your shelter 

I'll be your storm  

I'll make you shiver 

I'll keep you warm  

Whatever weather  

Baby I'm yours  

Be your forever, 

be your fling  

Baby I will be your everything  

Baby I  

Baby I will  

Baby I will be your everything [x3]

081512

There's a rainbow always after the rain :)

It has been raining non stop these past four days and I'm happy that now we can see Mr. Sun shining again :) 

There was no storm in PAR these past four days but there had been flooding in different areas in the Philippines and the damages were really big. Places like Quezon City, Malabon, Pasig and Marikina were greatly affected and I feel sorry for those people who are again affected by the floods. We didn't expect this to happen but we are really thankful that we are all safe after this Ondoy-like incident. And though there were lives that are taken, still we thank God for always guiding and protecting us. Hope this will  not happen again.

And now that the rain has stopped, I know that many of us are happy to join relief operations or give donations to our fellow Filipinos. I myself want to join and my friends are already asking me so I will be glad if I can come. Hope I can come :) And this should be a way for us to extend our hands to those people who are in need. Let's be selfless this time and be concerned not only to ourselves but also to others :))

"I don't care if you are great or small
This world is here for all
And we are all connected in so many different ways together..."

 "Everybody needs a helping hand - Everybody needs a friend
Everybody needs to be the one with a helping hand to lend
Sometimes you need a helping hand - sometimes you need a friend
Sometimes you can be the one, you see, with a helping hand to lend..."

- Helping Hand Ed Rashed

This is just our new beginning. Be strong, have faith. :) #bagongPilipinas

"The sun is sure to shine  

For you and me for everyone  

So don’t be sad it’s just the start  

Of a new beginning in your life..."

- Blue Sky Hale

080912

Always and Forever :)

They are my B-E-S-T-F-R-I-E-N-D-S always and forever :"> 

Larra, Maricar and May Ann :)

I will always be thankful for having these three good people in life. They're just so perfect to be my bestfriends :) 

-Larra, a strong and sophisticated girl. She likes teasing and making fun of me but I still love her despite of that. I've been with her since 1st year high school so I'm already used with that. She's a happy girl who knows exactly what she wants in life. I admire her being strong in everything and her being sarcastic. Lol. She loves old music, old movies, old love stories and everything old. Haha. Just joking. She's just not so into with this new generation's music and movies especially today's romantic movies. I know, she's weird. Anyway, she also love pink and our birthdays fall on the same month which is September. Maybe that's why we're so compatible... not! :)))

- Maricar, an artistic and simple girl. She's good with drawings which makes her a great artist. I admire her for that. She doesn't like cleaning her room and sometimes she's lazy. We always do our overnights at her house because her mother is so kind that she lets us stay all we want. Hmm, Marc's favorite color is yellow and she loves playing online games like LOL and Dragon Nest which she just recently introduced to Larra. Now both of them play Dragon Nest and they wish that I will play too which I think is possible since I kinda like the game :) Anyway, back to Maricar, she's a good friend and I always love her for being a good friend to me too. :)))

-May Ann, a funny and  bubbly girl. She's the joker of the group and like Larra, she always teases me. She's very studious that I think she never skipped a class before. Wow. Her favorite is orange and she doesn't eat chips because she doesn't want to die soon. Lol. We both love Kpop which Larra hates (and we don't understand why she hates it so much). She also loves marshmallows, anime and manga meaning we have a lot in common. :))She's a responsible girl who also knows what she wants in life. And I love it when we're together because I always laugh and laugh and just laugh everytime. She's very dear to me. :))

These three people I will always be thankful for. Seven years of friendship and we're still counting. Hope that we'll be together, always and forever :))))

-080712

Acquaintance Party :)))

Spent an amazing day with my friends :)))

 

 (last photo) Josh, Me, Tonet, Grey, Butch, San & Nikki :))

Last Aug 3 was our Acquaintance Party and it was my first time to attend and unfortunately my last time also since it's already our senior year. 

 We had a class at 7:30  then we attended the first Friday mass by 10:30. It ended around 12 and we decided to go to Gateway to kill time since the party will start at 5pm. I went with Ate Joy and Nikki and we just chatted and talked about everything. We also waited for Nikki's BBear to come :)) 

Ate Joy, Me, & Nikki :))

DQ while waiting and chatting :))

Nikki :))

We went back to school by 5pm and waited for the party to start. There were only around 20 seniors and Kia didn't come (she's the one I'm very close with) and I somehow felt sad since she said she would come :( Anyway, the party started around 6pm and we began with a prayer. A Junior emceed the party and she was good and pretty. Our PD, Ms. dela Cruz opened the party with a simple opening message then the emcee introduced our guests. The night was still young when we had dinner but it was okay since we were already hungry, really! Tsk! We also had games and prizes which Sir Guiling initiated. There were also intermission numbers from different year levels. After all the intermissions, we all rushed to the photo booth. Maybe we had 10 shots and we really enjoyed it. 

Party just started.

(Tonet, Nikki, Ate Joy, Me & Sam)

Photo booth :)))

 

The party ended around 8 pm but we didn't come home yet coz we helped others to clean the place. It was tiring but since I was with my friends, it was okay. I really had an amazing night and it's great since it's one thing I will always remember :)))

I reached home past 10 and my friend drove me home. I was tired but my day was well spent :) 

080312

Every "Piso" Counts...

Ung feeling na saktong sakto ung pera mo tapos biglang mawawala ung piso.... Grabe! -________-

You really can't say the power of "piso". Tsk! I was going home the other day when I noticed that I've already spent the money in my wallet and all that was left was exactly the money for my fare and that's all, nothing more. I thought it was okay since it was exactly all that I needed and that I can already go home with that money only but I was wrong. When I was about to pay, I dropped something and I didn't think at first that it was 1 peso from my hand. And when I counted my fare to make sure, 1 peso was missing. So I immediately searched for it, carefully and thoroughly but I didn't find it. :((( I panicked and dug for my wallet to look again if there was 1 peso that may have visited my wallet but there was nothing. Good thing I was with my friend and I humbly asked him to lend me 1 peso. In my horror, he also needed 1 peso for his fare. What a coincidence. Lol.  So we both needed 1 peso and we were really out of luck. But thankfully he just gave me his 1 peso and said  that he would just rummage his bag in hoping that he would find another 1 peso. :)) So see? every piso counts.

So don't you ever say that it's just a piso or it's just a coin coz you'll never know when you would need it, badly!

 

 080512

When you're avoiding something, the more it comes to you...

I've been avoiding a question from my friend since he last asked me about it and believe me it's hard. I mean, every time I feel that he's going to ask me about it, I avoid him or I try to get our conversation somewhere but I always fail. In the end he's always able to ask me that question. What's the question? "Dez, kelan ako pwede manligaw?" 

It's not that I don't like this person or what, but I only regard him as a friend, nothing less, nothing more. He's sometimes mean (and I hate him for that!) but there are also times that he's nice (specially when it comes to me) Anyway, I've known him for 4 years already but I only got to be close to him when we were 3rd yr so technically 2 years. He's my friend's best friend and now he's an irregular at our school. And it's better that we're not block mates since we don't take most of our subjects together. Hmm. So when he asked me if he can court me, I told him that I'm still not allowed to have a boyfriend. And I told him that when we graduate, then maybe he can already court me. :)

But what if he asks me again? and again? and again? Coz as far as I remember, it's already been the 3rd time he asked me about it. :( Maybe he thinks that I will change my mind sooner or later. But no. We will stay as friends until we graduate, until forever. Only friends.

I know we're just friends and that's all we can ever be.

080212

11:11 :">

 Please be good to me August! :))

I'm excited since we have a lot of activities this month. I'm also looking forward on the 27th since I'm excited to see my name on the list of winners. Haha. Goodluck to me and Yana! Hope we win ;) We also have an Acquaintance party on Friday, thesis defense is on 27th also, and I will take an overnight at Marc's this weekend :))

So please be awesome and GV all the way :))