Sleepover :)

 Mostly when we say sleepover we think of  girl talks, a lot of boy stalking, nail polishing, and other girly stuff. But for us, well, overnights are for horror movies, LOL, Dragon Nest,  laughing, eating and just everything :))

Marc behind me while playing LOL :)))

Talking about life, love and problems are just normal when you're having a sleepover. Asking how's life or how are things between you and your boyfriend or have you seen this movie are questions we usually ask each other. I've known my friends for almost 7 years already and we believe that we already know each other by heart. We know if something is wrong or if something is going on. We know each others' favorites, likes and dislikes and just everything about each  other. So we might not see each other everyday but we know that nothing will change between us and that no one can ever ruin our FRIENDSHIP :">

 I love spending time with my friends especially when we really miss each other. For a night we'll just have fun and laugh and eat and sing and watch and just do whatever we want to do. We don't care what time is it just as long as we're having fun :">

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I've tried it before and it didn't work.I thought it will but I was wrong. I didn't think it would be that hard. He was kind, smart and a funny guy but we weren't meant for each other.. He told me I was the one for him and that he would do anything for me. It was hard for him but it was harder for me since I had to lie to him. I accepted his heart even though I didn't like him. He was that persistent that even though I already told him a million times that I was not the one for him, still he persuaded me. He sent me letters, called me at home and and drew flowers on my test papers. And though I tried giving him a chance still our relationship didn't work. In the end we had to let go and just stay as friends. Maybe we were just too young by then that we still didn't understand a lot of things when it comes to relationship.1.

"If two people stay as friends after a break up, then they were never meant for each other."

The next time I had one was with someone I like but unfortunately we also didn't click. He was a funny guy with a lot to say  and he really liked teasing me to someone else. I liked him because he was smart and serious but I didn't think that he would be one of the mistakes in my life. I thought he was true and sincere until he broke up with me. I really thought that everything was going fine between us and that I finally got it right. I was not serious towards him at first but when days passed, I realized that he was really sincere and true. And by the time I was ready to get serious and all, he broke up with me. I was wrong, I should've not believed in him that easily. He deceived me and now everything had changed. I will never love again, I thought. And it was funny since I really do think that life just get even with me when this guy broke up with me. I mean, I hurt the first guy who liked me and now the guy I liked hurt me. Funny isn't it? We're now even. 2.

"Being brokenhearted is like having a broken ribs. On the outside it looks like nothing is wrong,but every breath hurts."

The last time I had a serious one was 3 years ago. He was my classmate and I really liked  him. We lasted for a year and a month and sadly that was the farthest we can go. I liked him because he was humorous, cute, independent, responsible, sweet, caring, thoughtful, gentleman and everything a girl wishes her boyfriend to be. We were in senior year in high school and we knew we were mature enough to have a serious relationship. First month was sweet, second month was lovely, until we had prom on our 6th month and graduation on the 7th. Everything was fine until we entered college. We were attending different schools and somehow we became far form each other. I was fine with long distance relationship even though it was hard but he wasn't. We had other issues too like communication and best friend issue so we decided to break up. I mean he decided to break up with me. I know it was all my fault and I really really really regret it now. After that, we didn't talk. We didn't have any communication until he talked to me one time like nothing happened. We were back on being friends, we were back on being strangers. 3.

"A Love Affair with Knowledge will Never End in Heartbreak"

Now I wish the next time I'll have one, I want it to be true and mature. I want someone who will understand me and won't push me on something I don't want. I want someone who is true and sincere who will  never ever hurt me. And lastly I want someone who will stay no matter how hard it is to be with me. Someone who will never let go of me no matter what happens.

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Listen to your heart ♥

Follow your heart. Go wherever it takes you. 

Love whoever you want to love. 

Be with someone you wanna be with. ♥

"Don't listen to the world they say we're never gonna make it.  

Don't listen to your friends they would've never let us start. 

And don't listen to those voices in your head, listen to your heart. "

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One More Chance

As what Nick said, "Give love a try, one more time" :) 
Maybe it's time to open up my heart to someone else!

2012 Wishlist #1210

Get a boyfriend!

*Reasons why I don't want to have a boyfriend.
1. I'm not the type of girl guys fall in love with.
2. I don't want to have any commitment. 
3. I'm not into texting. 
(Which means I don't want to text someone every hour, every minute, every second!)
4. There's no perfect guy.
5. I'm not perfect.
6. Guys will be guys.
7. I have a lot of crushes which means I can't love just one.
8. I'm better off alone.
9. I'm not confident that someone will accept me as I am.
10. I'm scared.
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*Reasons why I slightly want to have a boyfriend.
1. I want to be with someone who can accept me for who I am.
2. I want to have a date on Valentine's Day.
3. I want to see a text message early in the morning saying "Good morning beautiful"
4. I'm jealous with my friends who have boyfriends.
5. I want to have someone I can talk to everyday, every hour, every minute, every second.
6. I want to have someone I can watch movie with, eat ice cream with, go to the mall with, star gazing with, have road trip with, and do anything with.
7. So I can have someone with me every time.
8. I wanna celebrate every month. (Monthsary)
9. I wanna feel loved.
10. I'm tired of being alone.

Maybe I should forget why I don't want to have a boyfriend and consider the things why I slightly want to have a boyfriend. :) And maybe I should try not to be so choosy because in the end, I might not get anyone at all. And maybe I should really try not to be so skeptical since someone is making an effort to show me that he really likes me. Well I hope he's sincere. ♥

But I need a sign please! Or signs. I need confirmation if this one is right and if this one is true. I just can't afford another heartbreak right now so I'm very very careful. And I know he understands. :)   

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I suck at LOVE :(

Stop looking for perfect partners. Just find someone who knows how lucky they are when they have you.

I know. But why do I always look for someone else? There is someone who's happy to have me and who loves me for who I am. But why can't I accept him? Why can't I let him love me? Why? I don't understand. Maybe it's because I really suck at love.

We're friends. And I thought that's all we can be. But I was wrong. I'm hurt, I'm jealous, I'm wrong. I should've given him a chance. I should've told him what I really feel. Now everything's not the same. He's avoiding me, he's not talking to me and he's not even looking at me. And believe me it hurts. We're together but it's like we don't see each other. We're on the same room but it feels like we're worlds apart. We're friends but it feels like we're strangers. Or at least we were friends. And I hate it when he doesn't say hi, I hate it when he doesn't talk to me and I hate it most when he ignores me in front our our friends. I hate it

It's weird and it hurts.

Time machine please? So I can go back to that time when he asked me that thing. That thing that ruined everything! That thing that ruined our friendship! That thing I will never want to hear again! 

Well, now I can say that i really suck at everything. Even in love. Poor me. :'<

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JOY in one's heart is healthy :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE JOOOOOOOY! :)))

Kristina Joy Tan. I met her almost a year ago. She was an irregular and we were classmates on Sociology and Transpo Management. Now she has all her classes with us. 

Kristina Joy or "Ate Joy" is a really good friend. It's only been 10 months but we're already like best of friends. We talk about everything, argue or agree on some things, and we laugh about everything. Well, we are just happy girls who love to laugh... and laugh and laugh. :)) I'm happy when we're together and I love it when we think of crazy ideas that would make us laugh our hearts out. Lol. We both love blue, movies and books and we both love to eat, to go everywhere and to study. :P 

Ate Joy is a very kind girl. She's sweet and thoughtful. She loves horror movies but she get easily scared when she hears ghost stories. She's talkative and moody sometimes. And believe me you will never ever win an argument with her. She wouldn't just let you win. Lol. 

It's only been 10 months and I know I haven't seen all of her yet. But I believe that as we continue on being friends, eventually on the coming days, months or years, I will fully know her. Her personality, likes, dislikes and everything about her. :)
 

"A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, 
and one of the best things you can be."  

~Douglas Pagels

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WANTED: ♥

Understanding.

Humorous.

Gentleman.

Sweet.

Thoughtful.

Caring.

Tall.

God Fearing.

Loving.

Faithful. 

With dimple/s. 

Okay let's admit it, there is no one in this world who possesses all of these, maybe 1 or 2 but not here, so it's impossible for me to find a perfect guy like this. But at least let me find someone who is understanding, God fearing and thoughtful. And gentleman and humorous and caring. Okay, exclude caring but sweet. And oh please, let him be taller than  me :)) So please, please, please, let me find someone like this. It doesn't matter where we meet, on the LRT, in the supermarket, in the mall, on the street, anywhere as long as we meet. And they say age doesn't matter, yes, but I want someone who's older than me. Hihi. :)

I know this is impossible but I know miracle happens everyday. Who knows God would reward me by letting me meet this perfect guy because I've been a good girl for 20 years. Who knows by the time I walk in the LRT, someone would get my attention and give back something that fell out of my bag. He would be smiling at me with those dimples on his cheeks and he would be a perfect  gentleman by helping me out with my things. Or when the elevator is about to close but someone hold it for me, I would be looking up at him and he would help me through. Or who knows by the time I get out of our house tomorrow, someone would be there waiting for me. :"> I don't know which of these will happen to me or will ever going to happen but I know things like these really happen. Maybe not to me, but at least they do happen. 

I'm demanding. I'm choosy. I'm impossible. But I wouldn't be asking for anymore but this. Just this guy and I will be perfectly happy. Forever. Thank you! :)

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I Hate that I don't Hate You!

I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! I  hate you!!! 

But I really don't! >.<

That's why I hate myself even more. Because I can't bring myself to hate you.

You're selfish and cold and unfair and mean and everything I always hated but still I can't hate you. 

I hate you! Really! But I don't! I'm crazy I know. It's just that....... I can't hate you! 

I can't. I Can't. I CAN'T! :(((((((

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It's just a.....

He was following me around. A guitar on his hand and he was just smiling at me. I kept walking and he kept following. I headed for my classroom and just ignored him. Then he stopped at a distance when I sat on my seat. He looked straight into my eyes. He started strumming and then I heard his sweet voice. The next thing I knew he was already singing.. He was singing for someone. He was looking at me. He was singing for me.

 

Then he started walking towards me. Getting closer and closer and closer until he was just a meter away. My heart froze. I didn't move. But he smiled then leaned closer. He was about to kiss me when.......... I woke up. And it was only just a dream! Everything was not real. It's not true. It's only a dream. Just a dream :(

 Just a dream :(

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FREEDOM!

 #NoToCyberCrimeLaw 

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