that feeling. :(

i hate it when i want to talk to a person but don't know how. :( i wanna ask what's the problem but i'm scared to know i'm the reason. i feel like he's distancing himself from me. we are friends. no, we "were" friends. he started to avoid me since that night he told me he was feeling awkward. i don't know what happened. we were okay and everything was great. he used to talk to me but not anymore. i wanna know why, i wanna ask him but i can't. i'm afraid without any reason. :( it's sad but i believe everything has it's own reason. maybe someday i'll know what happened between us. i miss him. his messages, his jokes, his voice and everything about him. i wanna tell him how much i miss him but i don't know how, and it's killing me. :( it's like we're worlds apart when in fact he is just a distance away. i wanna figure this out soon. wanna tell him my feelings but i guess i'll have to wait again. wait until everything is okay. but i'm fine with it, i'm used to waiting. that's where i'm good at, waiting. :( well, this is life, sometimes it's hard sometimes it's not. we just have to go with it. play and just enjoy it. live and love life, even if sometimes it's giving you a hard time. i hope he'll talk to me soon. :) but for now i'll try to understand. maybe he's up to something, maybe he's just confused, maybe he's just feeling the way i do. :( but this feeling really sucks! i hate it and i don't ever wanna feel this again, please not again!