july. ♥

Another month is about to end, we're half year done.. time really flies so fast. i remember it was just New Year the other month and now August is here. :) a lot had happened this month, well, most of them were about me and my sisters. Yana celebrated her birthday at home with us and her friends. Alyzza also, she invited her close friends. 21st was awesome. I mean it's Uncle's, Tito's and Kody's birthday. Our house was loud because they party all day and drink all night. It was fun, my cousin slept here. We joke around and had bonding. We also won tickets for PROM's advance screening in SM Megamall and we're hoping to win tickets again for Captain America's advance screening. Hehe. We watched Transformers 3 in cinema, went to MOA, bought Ate Anne's dress for her interview and looking forward to our gimmick next week. :) a lot to tell for the next weeks, so bye for now. :)

old love..

have you ever wonder where would you be right now if you hadn't break up with your ex? i mean, if things worked out between you two, you think you'll be happy? or would you be thankful that you didn't let him go? i saw someone this afternoon that made me think that what if things worked out between us, what if we both saved our relationship and went on? i guess it'll be different, a way lot different. if we ended up together i think i hadn't met jay. if we ended up together i think i will never know how to lose someone important to me and i think if we ended up together, i will never miss someone so much just like now. things work in so many ways. you do something and soon you either be happy for it or be sad about it, you said something and then the next day you realized it is something right or something wrong, or you made a decision that either you will be thankful for or regret the rest of your life. well, this is life.

seeing that person again brings so many memories. i remember those days when he was still courting me. we can't go near each other coz other might notice us, we never talk directly in front of others and we never tell anyone he was courting me until they just found it out. it was funny, we didn't want anyone to know about it. we were serious then, but now, when i remember how childish we were, it just makes me laugh, seriously. he used to text me just to say "ingat", he texted me sweet messages and he used to say "i love you", actually i miss him. I miss how he forced me to say “I love you too” HAHAHA.. I won’t forget that. NEVER! it was funny! he was forcing me to tell him “I love you too” coz he never received a text from me telling him I love him too. it was sweet, I mean he wanted me to tell him I love him. anyway, I miss his smile that until now I can’t believe he had for me. and i never really imagine that he will ask me to be his girlfriend, I mean he used to tease me and bully me, but I guess things really work in mysterious ways. he was someone I am thankful I had. he taught me things like two opposites can be together, for real. he’s a kind guy, at first you’ll think he is someone you can’t approach but when you get to know him you’ll realize he’s not that arrogant. haha.. anyway, he’s cute, I guess. I like the way he tease me and talk to me, it’s like I was a guy too or something.. he was funny and smart. he was a gentleman too.  so, I guess I talked a lot about him. I just missed him. it’s good to see someone who had been a part of your life. someone that once became special to you, someone you thought will be the one, your old love.

Marry Your Daughter by Brian Mcknight ♥ ♫♪

Sir, I'm a bit nervous
'Bout being here today
Still not real sure what I'm going to say
So bare with me please
If I take up too much of your time.
See in this box is a ring for your oldest.
She's my everything and all that I know is
It would be such a relief if I knew that we were on the same side
Very soon I'm hoping that I...

Can marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
Can't wait to smile
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

She's been hearing for steps
Since the day that we met (I'm scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left)
So don't you ever worry about me ever treating her bad
I've got most of my vows done so far (So bring on the better or worse)
And 'till death do us part
There's no doubt in my mind
It's time
I'm ready to start
I swear to you with all of my heart...

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

The first time I saw her
I swear I knew that I say I do
I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

-- what a nice song. I'll love it when someone make a song just like this for me. :)

falling I-N-L-O-V-E..

i miss falling in love. I miss how to smile by just seeing someone's face. The feeling when he is cheering you up when you're down, when he makes an effort just to make you smile and the feeling when he's there just holding your hand. I miss the way i dress up just to impress him, the way i put on my smile just for him to say I'm beautiful. Every second i wish he is here again, every moment i hope he'll be back again. Coz i miss falling in love........... with him. :(

that feeling. :(

i hate it when i want to talk to a person but don't know how. :( i wanna ask what's the problem but i'm scared to know i'm the reason. i feel like he's distancing himself from me. we are friends. no, we "were" friends. he started to avoid me since that night he told me he was feeling awkward. i don't know what happened. we were okay and everything was great. he used to talk to me but not anymore. i wanna know why, i wanna ask him but i can't. i'm afraid without any reason. :( it's sad but i believe everything has it's own reason. maybe someday i'll know what happened between us. i miss him. his messages, his jokes, his voice and everything about him. i wanna tell him how much i miss him but i don't know how, and it's killing me. :( it's like we're worlds apart when in fact he is just a distance away. i wanna figure this out soon. wanna tell him my feelings but i guess i'll have to wait again. wait until everything is okay. but i'm fine with it, i'm used to waiting. that's where i'm good at, waiting. :( well, this is life, sometimes it's hard sometimes it's not. we just have to go with it. play and just enjoy it. live and love life, even if sometimes it's giving you a hard time. i hope he'll talk to me soon. :) but for now i'll try to understand. maybe he's up to something, maybe he's just confused, maybe he's just feeling the way i do. :( but this feeling really sucks! i hate it and i don't ever wanna feel this again, please not again!