I'm trying to let you go...

Just when I'm trying to let you go, that's when you started to show up again. :( I hate you for making me want you more. I'm trying my best to convince myself that I don't like you anymore but you keep on reminding me that I still do. I don't want these feelings anymore. I'm tired waiting and there's nothing changing. You're there, I'm here. You don't talk to me and I don't talk to you. You tell your friends you miss me but you're not doing anything so you can talk to me. For once, I want to know what I am to you or who I am to you. I'm okay being friends coz somehow I know that's all we can ever be. But you always confuse me with your actions.

Signs please? I don't want to be confused anymore. It's hard, knowing I like him and he likes me but he's not doing anything. We talk but we can't admit that we miss each other. Crap! I hate this. Help please! :(( I wanna forget him but these feelings just won't stop. :( They keep haunting me. Last night I dreamed of him and all those things flashed back to me. That made it worse. Now I'm thinking of him again. :( I'll give it a week. If I still think of him after that, I'll talk to him. But if I don't, I wont. I will forget him for good. Deal! :)

092811 :)

Love Story :">

092911 12.50am

Just heard a story from my sister bout one of my parents' fight and it was sweet. :) I wanna have a boyfriend just like my dad. That even how mad he is to me he will never ever hit me. I want him to be mad at me or yell at me but he will never dare hit me. 

My sister told us that when we were little, our parents' had a fight that they were shouting to each other and we were just crying. She told us that no matter how mad my father was, he didn't hit my mother but instead the wall. I know he will never ever hurt my mom coz he's just a sweet and wonderful man. He's a gentleman and he respects women. And I want to have a boyfriend just like him. Someone who will love me just like how my father loved my mother. He will never hurt me and he will always respect me. And I don't remember anything about my father hurting my mom. All I remember is how nice my father was to my mom and how he treated her kindly when they were still together. My  dad is really a great man. 

I really love my dad and he will forever be my hero. A man I will always love, the man that no matter what happens, I will never forget. He will be my knight in shining armor, the one who will save me when I'm lost. The one I can always turn to when another man hurts me and the one who will love me truly. He's my dad and I know I can find someone like him someday! :)

The love story of my parents was really something. I still remember when my grandmother used to tell us how my parents met and what were the struggles my father went through just to be with my mom. It's funny I tell you. She said my father was like under a spell that he followed my mom wherever she go. I know they met at work. My mother was like a secretary before and my dad was kinda the boss, something like that. And after that my dad courted my mom until they decided to be together. (I skipped with the funny moments) And then, there were us. My older sis and me. My parents already had us when they decided to get married. Yana came next and then Alyzza years later. Now they're separated but they still act like they're together. I mean they text and call each other. My dad sends money to my mom and they still miss each other. They are crazy! I mean what's the point of separating when they still act like couples? Gets?! Hmm, maybe they just want to feel like teenagers again. LOL. And we always tease them but they say that it's impossible for them to be together again. I doubt that. With children like us, I know it's possible. Anyway, i just miss them so much! It's been a while since we last saw them. But my mom is coming a week from now and we're very very excited. See you, mom! For my dad, he's gonna be here on December. It's okay though, we can spend Christmas with him. And it's always nice to have him on Christmas.

A love story like this, a sweet, kind, gentleman and loving guy and of course me, a simple, kind, sweet and loving girl. It's gonna be perfect! :">

My day! :)

My day is ending but still no sign of the persons i wanna hear greetings from. :(  But though I'm having a great time with my sisters! :)) I'm happy and thankful for the greetings. Thank You guys! :)) We attended the morning mass then bought a cake. Went home, slept, ate then now i think we're gonna party. I'm having the best b*tches in the world! (as what they want me to call them because of Alex's That girl.) LOL. It's also my mom's birthday. The best mom in the world, I love you mom! :* my dad already called, thanks for the gift dad! :* I'm really thankful for my family. :)) Anyway, I still have 4 hours to celebrate.. and I'm still waiting. :))

happy 19th birthday to me! :">

Concert: All Time Low Live in Manila 09222011

All Time Low live in Manila - Sept 22, 2011

It was epic. Though we were a bit disappointed, it was still a great night. People started to gather at around 5 in the afternoon and we met Noyi. She's a first college student at UP and she's also a kpop fan which made us talk about a lot of things. Gates opened at 7 and we had the perfect seats. It started at around 8:30. Typecast was their front act and they played like 4 or 5 songs. I don't really know their songs. 

And the moment finally came as the lights go out and everyone started screaming. All Time Low opened their show with their song State of the Art and everyone went wild as they ascended the stage. We were screaming and singing along and I'm so sure everyone had a great time! They played a lot of songs including Do You Want Me Dead, Damned If I Do You, Forget About It, which is one of my favorites, Jasey Rae, and what's a party without Poppin' Champagne? Lol. They were funny throwing jokes and teasing each other. They also played Time bomb, which is a pretty good song, Guts and The Party Scene. And guess what the next song was. Who feel like dancing tonight? HAHA. Everyone danced along with the song which was pretty fun. It was followed by Sick Little Games. The last 5 songs were my favorites. They made me sing my heart out. Therapy, Remembering Sunday, Lost in Stereo, Weightless and of course their famous Dear Maria. \m/

It was an unforgettable night with a lot of memories. I really enjoyed it! All Time Low is ❤❤❤!

 There was also this one guy who we thought was high. He was like drunk or whatever coz he kept on dancing even before the show started. He didn't care what other people might think coz he just kept on dancing and rockin' out. Anyway, it was fun. Alex, Jack, Zack and Rian were awesome! Hope to see them again! :)

Here's a video from their show:

I Feel Like Dancin' Tonight! :))

This is it, tonight's the night! Let's rock with All Time Low. \m/ I'm sooo excited! Last day we saw them at SM North and people were really excited to see them. They did autograph signing then left, no other things. But tonight, we're gonna rock Araneta! See you later All Time Low. :) 092211

All Time Low ♥

OMG! I wanna watch All Time Low on the 22nd. :)))) Been waiting for this day and now it's here.. Sooooo excited. But i don't have ticket yet. :( My sisters wanna come too. Really wanna see Alex and the others. Tickets pls! I need 4. Lol. :) Anyway, hope we'll find tickets soon. It's a perfect birthday gift for me. :)

Retreat :)

We had our Retreat last Sept 5-7 and it was really fun. I mean it was a great experience and it made us realized some things about life. "The present of the present" i like this one because it tells us that what we have right now is a gift and we should appreciate it. 3 days were enough to enlighten us. The place was beautiful, it was in Cavite and we really had a long trip since we had stopover. It was just kinda sad because one of my friends didn't make it. Anyway, i should tell you more about it. Hmm, my partner was Nikki and we enjoyed each other. We talked about a lot of things in our room when we don't have our session. Kia also joined us and she actually spent a lot of time with us than with her roommates. Hehe. The food was also great, we eat 5 times a day, that would be breakfast, snack, lunch, snack then dinner. Our facilitator, Father Jayson was also nice and funny. He told us some stories about him and he said things that really struck me. The letter for my mom also made me cry. On our second night we did an activity. It was to say something to your classmate. Well, I'm really a quiet person and i don't talk a lot so it was kinda hard for me to just say something to my classmate. But still i managed to just say hi and something. Last day was tiring. we packed our things then had our last session and mass. We also took some pictures then went home. My sister fetch me at school so i didn't have any trouble going home. The retreat was really a great experience. I learned a lot of things which i know i will never forget. I'm thankful i was given a chance to participate in this retreat. Anyway, I've already said everything. Bye for now. ;)

i need a friend :(

i need a friend now. someone i can talk to. well, i think i have a lot in fb but i don't think they're interested in listening to me. :( just a friend to listen to my endless talking and someone who can understand me. i'm used to being alone but not like this. :( HAHAHA.. guess i just have to be strong, it will pass and i will be okay! i hope. :| 

    dear self, you will be fine and everything will be fine. just believe in yourself and have faith. don't lose hope. i'm here for you! :)

                                                                                                         sincerely,

                                                                                                 your other self :) 

poor me. :(