falling I-N-L-O-V-E..

i miss falling in love. I miss how to smile by just seeing someone's face. The feeling when he is cheering you up when you're down, when he makes an effort just to make you smile and the feeling when he's there just holding your hand. I miss the way i dress up just to impress him, the way i put on my smile just for him to say I'm beautiful. Every second i wish he is here again, every moment i hope he'll be back again. Coz i miss falling in love........... with him. :(

that feeling. :(

i hate it when i want to talk to a person but don't know how. :( i wanna ask what's the problem but i'm scared to know i'm the reason. i feel like he's distancing himself from me. we are friends. no, we "were" friends. he started to avoid me since that night he told me he was feeling awkward. i don't know what happened. we were okay and everything was great. he used to talk to me but not anymore. i wanna know why, i wanna ask him but i can't. i'm afraid without any reason. :( it's sad but i believe everything has it's own reason. maybe someday i'll know what happened between us. i miss him. his messages, his jokes, his voice and everything about him. i wanna tell him how much i miss him but i don't know how, and it's killing me. :( it's like we're worlds apart when in fact he is just a distance away. i wanna figure this out soon. wanna tell him my feelings but i guess i'll have to wait again. wait until everything is okay. but i'm fine with it, i'm used to waiting. that's where i'm good at, waiting. :( well, this is life, sometimes it's hard sometimes it's not. we just have to go with it. play and just enjoy it. live and love life, even if sometimes it's giving you a hard time. i hope he'll talk to me soon. :) but for now i'll try to understand. maybe he's up to something, maybe he's just confused, maybe he's just feeling the way i do. :( but this feeling really sucks! i hate it and i don't ever wanna feel this again, please not again!

How To be Confident? :)

How to be confident? I don't know either. Maybe just be yourself? hmm.. I also want to know how I can increase my self confidence. I'm very shy in front of people. I wanna be confident and just be me in front of the others. I read an article that says to be confident, first we have to make a list of special talents we have, or things we do that are good—morally or otherwise. We have to find our passion, find a role model or someone we look up to. Focus on other people, accept compliments, know that we have important things to say and do. We should take care of ourselves, stick up for ourselves, celebrate our individuality, improve our posture and take action. These are all true. maybe if we should just follow these and live our live accordingly, we will surely have great self confidence. I wanna try this. Hope it'll work. :))

Father's Day!

i made this poem for my dad. :)

He was there when i first opened my eyes
His touch was so gentle and nice,
I remembered the first time he carried me
He was excited and happy...

He wasn't there when i was growing up
But he's there when my life is rough,
He's not always present on my birthday
But his gifts were given everyday..

I miss it when we joke and play around
His voice that makes me safe and sound,
I miss it when we drive around the city
Our late night trippings and movie...

He is so loving and understanding
Thoughtful, funny and caring,
He's someone who will protect and love us
Someone who will give all he has...

I am very thankful to have him
I was so blessed because of him,
He is my knight in shining armor
My king and super hero...

Now I wanna thank him for everything,
Wanna tell him certain things,
That I'm always glad he is my father
And i will love him forever...

He is the greatest dad in the whole world
The bravest man in my life,
He's so wonderful because he's my dad
And he is the best I ever had...

love you daddy. :* Ferdinand Cruz Ocampo! :))

the story of us. ❤

i always dream of that perfect relationship with a perfect guy. but i guess there's nothing like that. i mean, there's no such thing as perfect relationship and perfect guy. well, all i want is a nice guy who will love me for me. who will appreciate the simple me and will always tell me he'll love me no matter what. i want someone who will be there the moment i open my eyes, the one who will prepare breakfast for me, the one who will watch silly movies with me. he will introduce me to his family and friends. he will not be ashamed of me. i want a guy who will play with my hair, someone i can tell my secrets to, a person i can trust. he will never hurt me and never make me cry. someone who will take me to concerts, cook my favorite foods, help me with my projects, sing with me, dance with me, go crazy with me. we will drive around the city late at night, we will watch the sunset and will stare at the stars til we fall asleep. he will buy me stuff and i will buy him too, we'll be happy together, like we'll stay forever. the guy who will remember our first date, call me just to say he loves me, text me just to say he misses me and run to my house just to say he got tickets for my favorite movie. i want someone i can depend on, someone i can cry to when i have problems, someone who will tell me everything will be fine coz he's there and someone who will buy me ice cream after our silly fight. i want a guy who will never get jealous about my guy friends because he understands and someone who will be mad a me but after a minute will kiss me and say "i love you". i wanna be comfortable with him, like he's my best friend. i wanna be the reason he smiles and why he always checks his phone. i wanna be the girl who will make him realize that he is worth loving and i wanna be that someone who will make him say, "someday i'm gonna marry you". i wanna be the girl he'll be proud of, the girl who will love him forever, the girl who will accept him no matter what and the girl who will be his wife. i know it's something but for me this is the perfect relationship i want, we fight but still love each other, we get jealous but have trust and we appreciate each other even though we know we're not perfect. i want to have a relationship like this with a guy i know will be perfect for me. he's maybe out there, just took the wrong turn. but i know someday he'll find his way right back to me. i hope! i know we'll meet someday, somehow. and when that time comes i'll never let him go. :D coz i never want to wait again for my long lost prince. :)) and this will be the story of us. :) ❤

Movie: A Crazy Little Thing Called Love. ♥

that love story. :"> when we were younger we used to have a crush, a crush that grew into something more. he could be a senior in our school, your sister's friend or someone you just met. he made you smile, made you skip class just to pass by in his room, made you stalk or change yourself. he was that someone who we admire and will do anything just to be seen by him. i love this movie, makes me remember my high school days when i used to do things like those. passing by his room and pretending not to look but i was actually looking at him, doing things just for him to notice me, but i never had a chance to give him gifts or something. Shone was cute. :"> i like him. Nam too. i love them both. :))

there was a time we talked to him and admit it, we liked it. we wished the time had stopped. we had a little conversation, a cute story and something else.

falling for someone was never easy, well sometimes it is, he can make you smile, you like him, he appreciates you, you like him, he knows you well, you like him. it's easy to say you like someone but it's hard to say you really love someone. you have to consider things, why do you like him? there must be no reason, you just like him that's all. and sometimes it's hard when you like someone but something or someone gets in your way.
it's hard especially when you like someone but his friend like you and the one you like can't like you because he had a promise to his friend that he'll never fall for you, it's complicated.

it's far from the happy story we always think. a perfect guy, a simple girl, a happy love story. this movie is about how you improve yourself because of love, because you like someone and you wanted to prove him you can be better. it's about loving and accepting. loving the guy for so long and accepting that he can't be yours. but in the end, you'll know he also liked you and been waiting for you. it's a nice movie, i've watched it so many times and i never get bored watching it. i always love Nam. :">

06012011 :)

first day of the month was great! now i feel like i will have a wonderful month. (i hope so!) 14th is the start of classes, though i still don't want to, i can't do anything about it! hmm.. let's talk about today. :) morning, we just stayed home. watched tv, ate, did my ff, read and texted. :) by 4, we went at SM and waited for my sis. Did grocery fist then snack time. We watched kung fu panda 2 and it was great! funny as ever and bet it has part 3. :) we went home past 9, had dinner, watched tv, now surfing the net and i'm ready to sleep. :) done some uploading and chit chatting. i had a wonderful day. that's all. :)) tomorrow's gonna be the same. :))

summer. :">

it officially started! :D yey.. no more lessons, no more activities, no more assignments and no more exams! finally, i can now enjoy my summer.. i have so many plans so i better get start. :) hope i'll really enjoy the rest of the summer and i wish we could go in Palawan. i just hope. :D it would be very exciting. :)) so, later! :D

i think i'm.......

o oh! i didn't expect this. i thought it was just another crush, but i think i was wrong. yea it isn't just crush. i think i'm falling for him! haha.. i know, it's not right. but i don't know why everytime i look at him, i just can't stop smiling. it's like there's something in him that keeps on pulling me. haiisst! a little help here? i want to figure out what is this. is this really something or am i just going out of my mind?? give me signs please! thanks. :) i need it ASAP! i don't want this feeling so hurry up. :D

Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day to all moms out there! especially to my beautiful, caring and sweet mom, Liezl Ocampo. 

I love you so much and thank you for everything. :)

family. :)

yes! finally we were complete after a long time! my dad, my mom, ate anne, me, yana and aly. <3 though i didn't able to come on some of our gatherings, im happy just to be with them every night for 7 days. :)) we had bonding, a lot of stories, foodtrips, laughtrips and of course girly things we shared. :)) 8 days were not enought but we made the best out of it. :) first day, we had a family dinner.


second day, malling.




third day was my ate's graduation, when i wasn't able to come coz i have class. :(



fourth and fifth day we had an outing at laguna. it was a good place. we really had fun! :D swimming, picture taking, bonding, and everything.. :))

my parent's friends also visited us. :) they were friends at work before. We also drink and ate ai actually got drunk. it's my first time seeing her like that. i mean she's crying and talking about everything and honestly i wanted to get drunk too but unfortunately not! haha.. xD it was an overnight outing. we slept separately coz we wanted too. :)) in the morning, we had breakfast, swimming again and went home. we were tired but happy. :) it was really a wonderful outing with my family. :)) then sixth day, i have classes, last day i wasn't able to come at the airport. :( haisst! now you know why i hate summer classes! :( anyway. it was a great week with my mom. i really missed her. so much! hope this will happen again in the next month. :))

excited? i guess not anymore. :(

i thought this would be a great summer.. i'll be able to see my parents, it's my sister's graduation, it's summer time, we'll go to palawan and we'll have a family reunion..but i guess not.. i have summer classes that ruin it all. :(( i hate it but i have to do it. i won't be able to come at my sister's graduation, i can't be with my parents because i'll be at school the whole day, no more palawan, no more summer!! argh! i just hope i'll do good at school.. wish me luck! anyway summer has just started, there's still time to have fun.. :D

after five years. :)

yep, after five years we met again. :) he was my classmate in elementary. :) he is nice, tall and quiet! haha.. xD but i hate him being quiet coz the whole time we were together he didn't even open up something we can talk about. hmf! well, thanks to his friend. :) they're here to spend there summer. they asked me if i could meet them at MOA yesterday, since i had nothing to do i decided to go. and my gosh, they were so late, as in sooooo late! i've waited for two hours. :( crap! but that was ok. at least they showed up.. at first we were not yet that close, but when we get to know each other everything was fine.. first we tried bowling and i had fun.. it was my first time. :D i scored second highest. :) great! loser treated us halo2. :) after that, hmm.. timezone. racing. guitar.tekken. basketball and other games. we also tried the picture thing, i forgot what it's called. haha! after, we just walked around the mall. we went in the baywalk, and jut stayed there to rest.. we also tried the boat thing, it's moving like you were really in the sea. haha.. it's like anchor's away. :) picture picture. bonding. and then we decided to go home. it was a nice day with them, so bad we didn't have time to go somewhere else. but it's ok. we rode jeepney back to MRT and i take off first. and that was it.. our meeting after 5 years. honestly i had fun. even though he didn't talk much. tsk! i guess there's always gonna be a next time. and by that time i hope he'll talk. haha.. xD so, i talked to much.i was just happy! isn't it that obvious? :D well, i'll end it here. :P

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