i hate this feeling!

so i guess that was the end! he'll never talk to me again. i wonder why! he said he likes me, but why suddenly he just don't wanna talk to me? weird isn't it. he said it's embarrassing. what? what's there to be embarrassed having a crush on a girl?! i don't really get him. before he used to tell me he wants to see me each day. he wants to hear my voice. but now he doesn't even bother to pm me. argh! what's wrong with him? did he already banged his head on a wall and realized he doesn't like me anymore? or did he eat something making him think that i'm not that good as what he though before? i don't know. maybe i'm just confused. i don't really know him, but why am i saying this things? why do i care about him! hmm.. i'm just curious i think, confused, or maybe i'm out of my mind! thinking that he really likes me. that even we just met he already likes me and want to be my friend. i don't know, why keep asking?! i guess this is just life. we'll meet someone who will make us feel so special but then he will be just someone we'll know. someone to leave us just a memory. and yes, he was just someone i met that left me a wonderful memory. just a memory to remember for the rest of my life! anyway, just wanna say i miss him! so much!

2011. :)

Goodbye 2010. Hello 2011. I know this is kinda late, but i wanna share how's my new year so far. :) First week, we went out with our cousin, Kenneth and had fun. Movie, laughtrip, food trip, games and everything. We really had a great time. School is also back. home works, projects, activities and exams again! argh. i hate it. =X but i got to see my friends again and I missed them so much. :) hmm, what else? new year, new life! I wanna enjoy and BE HAPPY this year. No more drama and less worries. More blessing and new love life! haha. joke! But anyway, the year just started, I have so many to tell as it continues. Later, bye! :)

DECEMBER 2010! A December to Remember. :">

A lot of things happened last December. Christmas vacation, EK with friends, Simbang Gabi and of course, Christmas Day. And I can say that December 2010 was really a month to remember! I had fun with my friends at Enchanted Kingdom, riding Anchor's Away, Ferris Wheel, Rio Grande, Flying Fiesta, Roller Coaster and a lot more. We really bonded and had a great time. School was off too, meaning no homework , no exams and just days of pampering and having fun. Simbang Gabi started on the 15th of December and I'm happy I was able to complete the 9 nights of sacrifice. 

I also met someone. He was mysterious at first but now I totally know him. :) He was also one of the reasons why I enjoyed my Christmas and I'm thankful to have met him.

Family reunions, gifts, foods and everything else made my December a really good one. I had a chance to be with my family and ENJOY THE SEASON WITH THEM. Last year was really great and I'm thankful for everything that happened. I was happy and I felt really loved. :)

just another CRUSH. :)

you know that feeling.... when your crush looks at you and then.. OMG! your heart beats so fast that you feel like you're gonna have a nervous breakdown and then you can't stop smiling and you're shaking coz he's looking at you! GOSH!! i know! i really can't forget that day.. when i met his eyes and he smiled at me. :"> i felt like i was going to have a heart attack.. LOL.. i just can't move on! i feel like going there everyday just to see him.. :D i always want to look at him. HAHA! anyway, that day was one of my happiest day ever. as in EVER!! and what's the name??.. J.E. love it. ♥

PS.. at least say hi when we pass by. okay?! :P

Poem: You. :">

`the way you look and stare

when you run your fingers through your hair,

i love it, it takes my breath away

just smile and you make my day.. :">

`i hear you playing the guitar

you're just my favorite rock star,

you sing and my heart sink

i just die when i saw you wink.. :">

-- my poem.! i wrote this last month coz i was inspired by my crush. :) i really love everything he does. guess i really like him and this is not complete, it has 7 stanzas but i just shared my favorite lines. :)) hope you like it. :D

i miss you. =((

i really really do.. i miss your name, your smile, your voice, your hands, your face, your smell, your eyes, your jokes, your messages, your notes, your handwriting, your shirt, your stories, your hugs.. i miss the way you look at me, the way you walk with me, the way you smile at me, the way you hold my hand, the way you make me smile, the way you tease me, i miss everything we used to do! =( i miss you! everything about you! how i wish you were still mine. that you're still a part of me. now i promise that if ever you come back, i will never ever hurt you and i'LL LOVE YOU TiLL MY LAST BREATH. i PROMiSE!!! ♥ ♥

iLyLADY27 ♥ ♥

since you've been gone. :(

`yah i admit it.. i really miss you.. duhh.!! isn't it that obvious??.. are you numb?.. tsk.! kidding.. haiSst.. i hope we can move back time.. the time when we were still together.. the time when we still love each other.. it was my fault, if i just gave myself time to realize what your worth was, guess i'm not blaming myself now.. anyway.. what's done is done.. we can't get it back and make it right.. so sad i missed the chance.. whoo.. so much drama, i just want to let it out.. ^o^

APRiL o1, 2o1o. =))

it's my grandma's death anniversary. we went in loyola memorial park to visit her and pray. ;) ;) the whole family was there. we ate, prayed, and talked about so many things.. we also bonded with our cousins. (miss them so much) hMm.. we're also enjoying or holy week. anyway.. so much to tell you when 5 comes. ;) :)

sad. :(

i hate feeling this way. :( the feeling of being left out.. no one cares. no one to talk to. no one to listen. :( and i hate telling myself i'm alright, when the truth is i'm not fine. :( :(

saturday. :(

- finals is coming.. whoOo.. then vacation is here, but i'M kinda not excited. don't know why.. :( iNis din dahiL di ako mkakapunta sa birthday ni kambal.. huhu. ;( anyway.. di din ako sumama kila meme. nood daw cNe.. wAaAa.. what am i doing ba??.naiinis ako sa sarili.. di ko n nbibigyan ng tyM ang mga friends ko.!! haiSst..

confused. T_T

hMm.. i don’t know what to do.. cos i have this friend who told me that he likes me.. actually he’s my ex.. we were seeing each other these past few days because of his friends.. they always invite me to watch movies, go malling and to go to their school and i just can’t say no.. they even asked me ‘pwede bang ibalik nyo ang nakaraan??..’ i just smiled and didn’t know what to answer.. and everytime i think about that question, i tell myself that i won’t hang out with them again so i can avoid him. but everytime they ask me out, uh oh, i always say yes.. :( haiSst. i hate this feeling, i mean, he’s nice, smart, fun to be with.. but I DONT KNOW.. i can’t even talk to him about this, that i’m confused, coz whenever we are talking, he always say that he’s happy, he tells me that he’s willing to wait.. :( wAaAa.. what to do???

27 forever.=))

 

`i love everything about you.. your hair, your dimples, your smile, your hands, your lips, your laugh, your jokes, your friends, your attitude, your voice, your eyes.. and everything about you.

27 forever.=))

retreat ;) ;)

we had our retreat last feb 25-26 at SPC Vigil House in Taytay.. =)) it was a great experience.. we left school at around 8 in the morning. we arrived at the vigil house 9 o'clock..we had our first conference then snack and we arranged our things in our rooms.. we had conference, sharing, confession, and other things.. we ended our first day by praying at the chapel.. my roommates were joi and nikki. we talked about so many things and ended up with 'ghosts' just what father boyax said.. face your fears.. xD at first we can't sleep thinking about that.. but time went by, we didn't notice that it was already 5 in the morning.. second day was tiring.. we packed up our things.. we had a mass and pray the rosary.. by 3 pm, we were getting ready to go home.. they give back our cellphones, cameras and other stuff so we can have picture takings and call our parents.. that two day retreat was great.. we learned so many things.. as we leave the vigil house, we were so tired.. slept at the bus and even became dizzy.. we arrived at school at around 5 pm.. ^o^