Back to being AWKWARD.

I know this. I swear I felt this before. And I hated that feeling. I hated it that I swore I wouldn't want to feel it again. But here we go again. We're back on feeling awkward with each other. Damn!

I don't know what happened but when I woke up one day, we suddenly stopped talking to each other. Like we're not friends anymore. It's sad but I think you have your reasons. And I believe that everything happens for a reason. I may not understand it now, but I know someday I will. :)

And maybe accepting that things don't always go the way we want it to be would be great. Accepting and moving on. :))

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Congratulations!

March 22, 2013. It was supposed to be a happy and exciting day. Yes, I was happy and excited but I was also sad and angry. I had mixed emotions that I didn't cry because of my graduation, I cried because of the things happening around me. But then I realized that I am still blessed. I shouldn't be sad and angry but I should be thankful and proud that I already finished college. And that my family is here with me and I have friends who loves me. :)

 Ate joy, Nikki, Me, Tonet, Sam & Aian :)

These are the people who made my college life more exciting and happier. Sa tawanan, kalokohan, kulitan, kainan, kwentuhan, kantahan, iyakan, asaran, pag-aaral, thesis, OJT, rob mag, gateway, bahay nila nikki, ovenight kila ate joy, timezone, clearance, kokology, pag aayos ng grades and everything, I will always thank them. I wouldn't be this proud and happy without them. :)

"True friends can never be lost!" 

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BSTM. Batch 2013. :)

 

March 22, 2013 :)

Finally, the long wait is over. I've been waiting for this big day of mine and now it's going to happen.

First year. I'd never heard of St. Paul before and when my father mentioned it to me, I was like, "Where is that school?", "Is it exclusive?", "I'm not sure about it.". But then I got to know the place and met a lot of new people who became a big part of my life. I mean, I got to know new friends and learned new things. I met Joy, Abbie and Dianne and they were my first friends. I enjoyed their company and I'm really glad I met them. And then first semester was over. Second semester came and I got to meet Kia and Kim. From then on they became my closest friends among our block.

Second year. I was still with Kia and Kim but then Joy, Abbie and Diane dropped out. It was sad but I understood their reasons. St Paul became more interesting and I loved it more. I learned new things, experienced new adventures, and a lot more. And it was the year when I became closer to Marga and from then on she joined our group. Then it became me, Kia, Kim and Marga. That was when I enjoyed more my college life. I felt happy with my studies and friends. I had tours, immersion, and bonding moments with my friends which I really won't forget. 

Third Year. It was the year I felt kinda down. Marga went abroad and Kia and Kim had problems with the school. It was sad since I was left alone and it was hard for me since I was not that close with my other blockmates. My grades fell down and I was always late. It was like I didn't want to go to school anymore because my friends weren't there. But then I realized that I shouldn't be like that. So I did what I was supposed to do. I went to school one day and decided to do my best no matter what. I hated this year but it taught me a lot of things like we shouldn't depend on others that much and we should know how to trust ourselves. It was also the year when we did our thesis. It was hard but I'm happy we made it. We got 10 balls and all our efforts and hard work had been paid off.

Fourth year. The last year of my college life. It was fun and exciting and I got meet new people who I became super super close that I can already call them my sisters. I met Ate Joy, Tonet, Nikki, Marianne, Sam, Khai, and of course my ever loving and supportive friend since first year, Kia. This year has become one of the best years of my life and I am thankful I met those people. I experienced a lot of things that really changed me. My life, my love life and everything. It was also fun since we had our OJT at PICC. And now we're only 3 days away from our graduation. Yes, graduation. Believe it or not, we're going to graduate this Friday, March 22, 2013. And I'm really really happy and thankful. :)

St. Paul University has been a part of my life and I will always be glad that I entered this school. It became my second home and people there became my family too. And now I am leaving this school with a smile on my face because I know that no matter what happens, I will always be thankful that it taught me a lot  of things that I can use in my life. Life lessons and good things that will surely come in handy. :)

Ocampo, Dezel Marie y Cacatian. 4C BSTM. Batch 2013

When you fall in love, it's different. ♥

You know that feeling when you get all excited by just seeing his name on your inbox? That feeling when you hear his name even though it's not really him? When something reminds you of him? And when he asks you if you two can go out? That feeling! :)

I don't know how it happened but I think, I just think that maybe I like him. "Maybe". But I don't know (shrug), I just feel like this could work out. And who knows he could be that Mr. Right I'm waiting for? Haha. It's funny coz it's only been a week and I'm already acting like this. Like I've known him for a long time already. I hate him when he's not texting me, I hate it when he doesn't reply, and I hate him when he doesn't make an effort to see me when he always says he will. Argh! Why do guys have to be so hard to read? Why do they have to make things complicated? Is it that hard to ask a  girl out? Or ask for her number? Or ask her name? Guys! 

But I really want this to work. I want him to ask me out. :)

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3 days...

It was Wednesday. He said hi. I smiled. We met. We smiled. People noticed. They asked. He said I do. I said no. I stayed. He left. Days passed by. He came back. I was still there. He smiled. He was shy. I waited. He did nothing. I still waited. He still didn't do anything. I was giving up. He asked. I smiled. He smiled.

First. :):):)

Second. :):):)

Third. :):):)

That fast! 

Now I hate myself for feeling this way. I just didn't know that I'll like him this fast.

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Please let this work!

For once, I want this to work out. Please? :)

I want him to ask me out. ♥

The Girlfriend.

This time I want to be the girlfriend. The one who's happy and contented. The one who gets her late night dates and the one who walks with someone hand in hand. The one who will smile each day when she wakes up because of that text message from someone. The one who will look forward on Valentine's Day, the one who will draw a heart on that special date on her planner and the one who will always be thankful. I want to be that girl. ♥

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Skeptic.

Why is it so hard to believe when someone tells you that he likes you? But why is it harder to admit that you like him back but you're afraid he will just hurt you? Ugh! I hate myself! :(

Why am I so skeptical? Is it that hard to believe, even just once, when someone tells you that he likes you? IT IS HARD! Especially when you met a lot of guys who did the same. Started talking to you, tried to know you, told you cheesy things, and everything but you still know that in the end, they will just leave you if they meet someone better. See? It's hard!

Again.

Gosh. Why am I acting like this? It's like I haven't been on the same situation before. Like I haven't been hurt before. Like I haven't been dumped before. Like I haven't been left behind before. :(

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Crush?

Hanggang crush na lang ba talaga?

Nagpaparamdam, nangbobola, nang-aasar, pero hanggang don na lang ba un? Hanggang pacute na lang? Naiinis ako kasi ang dami nga nila, wala namang nanliligaw. Aanhin ko ung maraming nagkakacrush kung hindi naman sila nanliligaw? 

KFine. Hanggang crush na lang. 

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