First Love :">

Can you really forget your first love? I mean, does it really have a hold on you? I guess so. Coz until now, I still have that first love in my heart. Maybe past and hidden but never forgotten.

 

They always say that first love never dies and it always stays in your heart. I guess they're right. No matter how long it has been or no matter what happened, you can never forget your first love. And admit it or not, maybe not always just sometimes, you remember that person who made your heart skip a beat for the first time. Sometimes you think of what ifs with him. What if you're still together? What if it worked out? What if you held on? and things like those. And most of the time, seeing something that reminds you of that person, even just a single thing, brings back all the memories you had together. Good or bad, everything. It maybe a picture together, a shirt you used to share, a gift on your monthsary or even a text message. So many things that remind you of that person that sometimes you can't help but think about him again. And feelings start to haunt you again.

My first love was a not so good one. I was in 4th year high school then when someone confessed to me. He's a good and smart guy. He told me he liked me but I only thought of him as a friend. He used to call  me every night and texted me everyday. And he would call even though I already told him not to. It was like he never get tired of talking to me, and I liked it. I mean he was showing me his effort and it was nice to think that someone was making an effort just to talk to you. We used to exchange letters too but I only gave him heartbreaking ones. I would say in the letter things like, don't call me again! never ever call me again! and some other hurtful words. Well, it was not like I didn't like him but I just thought that we were still young for things like those. And I already felt that time that his feelings might still change so we should not hurry ourselves to it. But still we gave it a try. At first it was awkward but we get used to it. Until something came up and things just suddenly went wrong. And it ended. That was my first love. A very short but unforgettable one. 

And now, it's coming back to me. Every time I see that person, something inside me is thumping and saying things like here we go again and stay away from me. It's funny but old feelings come back every time I'm with him and it somehow feels great seeing him again. And I thought that somehow he changed but he really didn't. He's still caring and thoughtful just like before. He's still funny and smart and knows how to make me smile just like before. But I wonder if his feelings changed. Has he forgotten his feelings for me already or does he still likes me just like before? And maybe we didn't last when we tried before, but who knows this time we will. Who knows?

So it is really hard to forget your first love. It will always remain in the deepest part of your heart, hidden but not forgotten. 

Just like my first love.

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Father's Day! :))

Someday I will find my prince charming, but my dad will always be my king! :)

 Happy Father's Day to all daddy, dad, papa, tatay, tay, papang out there! Especially to the most handsome, galante, hardworking, caring, cool, and loving dad in the world, my daddy Ferdie! I love you daddy! :) You will always be my first love ♥

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Late night confessions.

When you don’t need people to be around, they seem to be always there. But when the time comes that you need people to be around you, even just one person, it seems that no one’s there. :(

 -I hate it when I feel alone even though there's a lot of people around me. My family, my so called friends, strangers, I feel like no one cares and no one seems to notice me, like I'm invincible. They see me but they don't give a damn whether I'm fine or feeling okay. They just don't care. Well, who cares about me anyway? I mean, who will bother to ask someone like me how I'm feeling or how I'm doing. But it's okay since I'm used to it. I'm used to people ignoring me and just thinking I'm fine, always fine.
 And I wonder how it feels like to be asked how I'm doing or how I'm feeling. I wonder how it feels like to have someone by your side just looking after you coz he/she knew you're not fine even though you told him/her you're fine a million times. I wonder how it feels like to have someone comforting you and saying he'll/she'll never leave you no matter what happens. I always wonder.

But this is life, sometimes you cry, sometimes you smile, sometimes you break down and sometimes you feel high. But whatever happens, always know that there is someone who will never give up on you, God. Always think that you're not alone!

And I may feel sad, lonely, hurt, or broken and feel like my whole world is crashing and my life is a mess, but you know what? I don’t care. I’m just gonna smile and show everyone that everything will be fine, everything will be alright and I’m gonna be happy again. Eventually. 

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Just smile!

Sometimes it's tiring to cry too. So just smile and forget crying, it'll just make you ugly. :)

So don't cry, everything will be fine. Trust me! :) 

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Don't worry, Be Happy!

Life moves pretty fast, if you don't enjoy it once in a while, you might miss it. So enjoy life, don't worry and be happy! :D

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Reasons to be HAPPY :)

*There are just so many reasons for you to be happy. Your family, your friends, your favorite band, ice cream or a free movie ticket are enough reason why you should be happy. Because sometimes, you just need to look around and appreciate what you have. :)

I have a lot of things that make me happy.

-God

-My family
-My friends
-Super Junior
-Blue
-Rain
-Food
-Drawing
-Movies
-Music
-Writing
-Bands
-Anime
-Overnights
-Traveling
-Beach
-Concerts
-Free movie invites
-Treats
-Flowers
-Kids

-Chocolates
-Shoes
-Clothes
-Bags
-New friends
-Adventure
-School
-Pizza
-Sweet Texts

-Marshmallow
See? Even marshmallow can make me happy :)

Everyone can be happy by just looking at the good side of life. Don't worry, God won't give you problems you can't solve. So just trust in him and be happy. This is life anyway. It will give you both bad and good things and it's up to you on how you would deal with them. Explore, enjoy and appreciate every little thing around you. Be happy and smile because it's free. 

SMILE :)

Movies 101

     I always wish that my life is like a movie. You know, a perfect life with my family and best friends. I'm in a great school where I'm popular and a lot of boys like me and things like that. Isn't that awesome? I mean who doesn't want a perfect life? Everyone wants it, but not everyone has it. It's only possible in movies that's why I want my life to be like those movies. Everything I want, the love story I always dreamed of, the happy life I always wanted, and the happy ever after ending. How perfect! But wake up, movies are movies and my life is just  far from those. Sooo far!

     

     But movie or not, I love my life. And maybe I should stop watching a lot of movies because they just give me high expectations about life. But even though, I love movies, a lot! :) So here are some of my favorite movies. Movies I can always watch anytime, anywhere, any occasion, any situation. I just  love them. ;)

- A Cinderella Story

 Once upon a time... can happen any time.

- New York Minute

 Anything can change in a New York minute.

- 27 Dresses

 She's about to find the perfect fit.

- Barbie as Rapunzel  

  Love and Imagination can change the world.

- Prom

 It's nice to be around someone who believes in something so much.- Jesse

- Bride Wars

 Best friends should share everything.. expect their wedding day!

-A Walk To Remember

 Our love is like the wind... I can't see it, but I sure can feel it. - Landon

- The Lucky One

 Sometimes the most ordinary things could be made extraordinary, simply by doing them with the right people. - Elizabeth

- Sleep Over

 The rules are set. The game is on.

- The Last Song

 Do you ever really forget your first heartbreak?

- If Only

 His love for her forced fate to change.

- Letters To Juliet

 The greatest love story ever told... is your own.

- Dear John

 Two weeks together, that's all it took, two weeks for me to fall for you.- John

- The Proposal

 Margaret, will you marry me? Because I'd like to date you. - Andrew

- Titanic

 "You're crazy." - Rose
"That's what everybody says. But with all due respect, Miss, I'm not the one hanging off the back of a ship here." - Jack

- What A Girl Wants

 Trying to fit in. Born to stand out.

- 17 Again

 Who says you're only young once?

- The Notebook

 Behind every great love is a great story.

- Wind struck

  If only I can feel you....even as the win.

- Chasing Liberty

 How do you fall in love with the whole world watching?

- Lizzie McGuire

  The only risk in taking an adventure is not taking it at all.

- Love Wedding Marriage

 When a newly wedded marriage counselor learns that her seemingly happy parents are serious candidates for divorce, she throws all the rules out the window to repair their fractured relationship.

- Flipped

 You never forget your first love.

- Aquamarine

 When you find love, I guess it's really beautiful. I mean, that's what I've read in magazines. - Hailey

- The Vow

 I vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. I promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love. - Leo

- The Art of Getting By

 The toughest lesson is love.

- Confession of A Teenage Drama Queen

 She's making a scene over everything.

- Life As We Know It

  A comedy about taking it one step at a time.

- Tangled 

They're taking adventure to new lengths.

- Easy A

 A is for Awesome.- Olive

- Beastly

 Love is never ugly.

- Princess Diaries

 She rocks. She rules. She reigns.

- Prince & Me

 Finding your inner princess can be such a royal pain.

- Ice Princess

 From Scholastic...To Fantastic!

- So Close

 A gun is like a bird. If you don't grab it tightly enough, it flies away. If you grab it too tightly, it will die.- Hong Yat Hong

- Dare Devil

 When the streets have gone to Hell - have faith in the Devil.

- The Perfect Man

 Hey all you bloggers, it's me, the girl on the move. Well my mom got her heart broken again, so we're setting off on another big adventure. That's my mom's word for running away.- Holly

- Herbie Fully Loaded

 I'm being carjacked by my own car!- Maggie

- Snow White

Still the fairest of them all!

- Cinderella

 Midnight never strikes when you're in love.

- Beauty & The Beast

 The most beautiful love story ever told as it has never been seen before.

- Peter Pan

 All children grow up except one.

- Mulan

 This time, the princess saves the prince.

- Mulan 2

She's primped. She's engaged. She's back.

- Pocahontas

 Two different worlds. One true love.

- Sleeping Beauty

 Awaken to a World of Wonders!

- Mirror Mirror

 The Snow White legend comes alive.

- Tarzan

  An immortal legend. As you've only imagined.

- Tarzan 2  

 Be strong, be true, be forever *who you are*. - Kala

- Shrek

 The Prince isn't charming. The Princess isn't sleeping. The sidekick isn't helping. The ogre is the hero. Fairy tales will never be the same again.

- Shrek 2 

 Once upon another time...

- Shrek the Third

 For the funniest happily ever after.

- The Lake House

 How do you hold on to someone you've never met?

- One For The Money

 She's looking for a few not-so-good men.

- Howl's Moving Castle

 "Let’s run! Don’t fight them, Howl!" - Sophie

"Sorry, I’ve had enough of running away, Sophie. Now I’ve got something I want to protect. It’s you." -Howl

- Spirited Away

 Once you meet someone, you never really forget them. 

And all these other movies...

- Whisper of the Heart
- Tales from Earthsea
- Secret World of Arriety
- The Girl Who Leapt Through Time
- Sunny
- He Was Cool
- Love So Divine
- A Moment to Remember 

-Pocahontas 2
- Hunchback of Notre Dame

- Tarzan and Jane

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That’s where I’ll be waiting ♥

“You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That’s where I’ll always love you. That’s where I’ll be waiting.”

Friendship 101

That friend who always acts like our mother. L.

That friend whose house is always ready for overnights. M.

That friend we never get bored with. MA.

That friend who barely makes it on our dates. D.

That friend who works hard. L.

That friend who doesn't know how to clean her room. M.

That friend who cooks well. MA.

That friend who always cleans. D.

That friend who loves pink. L.

That friend who loves yellow. M.

That friend who loves orange. MA.

That friend who loves blue. D.

That friend who's loud. L.

That friend who's crazy. M.

That friend who's funny. MA.

That friend who's quiet. D.

That friend who's starting to have a boyfriend. L.

That friend who has a boyfriend. M.

That friend who never had a boyfriend. MA.

That friend who doesn't need a boyfriend. D.

That friend who will be a doctor. L.

That friend who will be an artist. M.

That friend who's not yet sure about her future. MA.

That friend who can't imagine her future. D.

That friend who loves to eat. L.

That friend who loves to eat anything. M.

That friend who loves to eat a lot. MA.

That friend who loves to eat everything. D.

That friend who has a talent in singing. L.

That friend who has a talent at drawing. M.

That friend who has a talent. MA.

That friend who has a talent but she doesn't know it yet. D.

That friend who hates high school. L.

That friend who enjoyed high school. M.

That friend we met when we were high school. MA.

That friend who misses high school. D.

That friend we always need to fetch and ask her parents for permission. L.

That friend we always ask for pieces of advice. M.

That friend we always need to accompany us to our parents for permission to go out. MA.

That friend who always lie just to make sure she can go out with her friends. D.

We always have these kinds of friends. Just like me having Larra, Maricar and May Ann. :)

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G-I-R-L-F-R-I-E-N-D-S :)

*People who always make stupid things with you.

*People who always care on everything you do. 

*People who always do everything you say.

*People who are always there to make your day.

*People who always notice what's wrong even though you tell them you're fine.

*People who always scold you when they know you crossed the line.

*People who always tell bad things in front of you, not behind your back.

*People who will always guide you when you are lost in track.

*People who always laugh when you fall but then will help you after laughing their hearts out.

*People who always make you smile when they see you pout.

*People who always lend you their hands whenever you need them.

*People who always blackmail you just because you can't hangout with them.

*People who always push you to your crush just to make him notice you.

*People who always hang in your house like it's their house too.

*People who always grab your bag to see if you have food.

*People who always cheer you whenever you don't feel good.

*People who always give you stupid advise.

*People who always tell you the truth when everybody else tells you lies. 

Girlfriends. They are just so dear to me. Laughter, tears, success, problems, memories, experiences, adventure, lessons, crushes, secrets and from make up to food, we share them all. Everything. 

And as I said, who needs a boyfriend when I have a lot of girlfriends? ;) I'm contented with these beautiful, crazy, gorgeous, smart, funny and awesome but sometimes mean friends of mine. I don't need another headache. I don't need another problem. And sometimes, there are just things you can't do alone and definitely can't do with your boyfriend. So I'm thankful for having these girlfriends I can just do everything with. Shopping, movies, make up, dress up, heart-to-heart talk, ice cream, photo shoot, manicure, pedicure,  overnight, boys hunting, eat-all-you-can and everything else. 

 And if there's one thing I wanna tell them, I will only tell them 5 words, "Thank. You. I. Love. You."

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Band: Boys Like Girls ♥

Boys Like Girls. I just love them especially Martin Johnson :))

Thunder

Someone Like You

Love Drunk

Learning To Fall

Five Minutes To Midnight

Heels Over Head

Hero Heroine

The Great Escape

She's Got A Boyfriend Now

Contagious

The First One

I Told You So

On Top of the World

Up Against the Wall

Dance Hall Drug

Broken Man

And I'm excited for their new album, Crazy World. Can't wait for their new songs. I know they will be great! :D

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Your hands are mine to hold ♥

Maybe not today, not tomorrow, but someday I'll hold your hand! ♥

-I just need to wait coz probably God is just preparing me for someone like Brad Pit or Zac Efron or maybe Chace Crawford. I won't hurry or complain coz I know eventually we'll meet someday. Maybe not today, not tomorrow, but someday I'll hold your hand too. 

And I believe that if something is meant to be, it will happen – in the right time, with the right person, and for the best reason. :">

Love, love and love.

                Why is everyone talking about love? I mean my friends have been asking me about this thing lately. Well, I know what love is and some things about it but why do they have to ask me things about that? Am I a love adviser? And the thing is, how the hell will I know what she thinks about him or what should he do to get her? Shoot! Give me a break please.

                I have this friend who always asks me for some advice regarding his love life. He’s been asking me things like, what he should do to make the girl he likes like him back and how he should make her see that he likes her. As a girl, of course I know what will make a girl fall for a guy but we all have different taste in guys. I mean some girls prefer a rich guy than a smart guy. Some prefer guys with sense of humor than guys who are serious. But then there are girls who prefer humorous guys than serious ones. And some girls like guys who are nice and nerdy but then there are girls who like nice guys who are athletic. See? Girls have different taste when it comes to boys. Like me, I love tall guys with dimples, but some girls prefer small guys with no dimple at all. But the dimple thing for me is just a plus, what I really like is a tall guy. So how the hell will I know what the girl he likes prefers when it comes to guys? Anyway, another thing is, he asked me whether he should continue courting the girl even though she already has a boyfriend… I know, that’s what I told him too, he’s insane. He already knew that the girl has a boyfriend and yet he still wants to court her? Is he a fool? He wants to ruin her relationship? That’s a bad thing. Very bad thing. And honestly, sometimes I want to go there, in front of him and give him a straight punch. 

                And my other friend, well, my best friend, she’s been telling me about this one guy who she met at her work. She said he’s different from the other and when she said other, she meant all the guys. She told me he’s sweet and thoughtful. Sweet coz he’s been telling her pick up lines which are so cheesy. I remember back in our high school days when my guy friend used to tell me pick up lines too and she was like “eww that’s so cheesy”, but now that she’s the one who's being told to, she’s like, “that’s just the sweetest thing ever” Isn’t that a bit unfair? I mean, when it was me, pick up lines were cheesy, but when it comes to her, they’re sweet? Oh please! Anyway, she’s my best friend so I understand. Back to the story, she told me she likes him. And believe me this is the first time I’ve heard her said things like love, boyfriend, relationship and commitment. Before, she hated those words and even swore she wouldn’t get a boyfriend ever. But look at her now, she’s in love. Our bitter friend finally finds the guy. And I’m happy for her. She told me she’ll try this one out and see if it’ll work. 

                And you know, I was right. I’ll tell you why. Back in our high school days again, she hated it when one of us had a boyfriend or suitors. She always told us it wouldn’t work coz guys are all the same. And whenever one of us was sweet to our boyfriends, she would say we were cheesy and we were flirt and things like those. She really hated guys back then and she hated a lot of things. But now that she found a guy who changes her view about guys, she realized that not all men are the same. Maybe she realized that someone is actually meant for her. And I’m thankful for this guy coz she changed my best friend, in a good way of course. Now she’s starting to consider a relationship with him though she’s not really sure where it will take them. But it’s good right? I mean it’s good to try things out than not trying at all. If it works then great, if not then it’s an experience. So I was right. I was right when I told her that all she needed was a guy to show him that it’s possible for her to love too. So I wish them luck and hope that she finally found love.

                Love, love, love… why is everyone talking about you? Why are my friends asking me about you while I sit here wondering how it feels to have you? Are you that great? I wanna know. Should I find one for myself? :) 

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