Goodbye 2011!

We're just 10 hours away from 2012 and I'm sooo excited! And because it's New Year, we should also have a new life. So goodbye 2011, goodbye old me, goodbye heartaches, goodbye old problems, goodbye bitter days, goodbye you, goodbye old diary, goodbye my planner, goodbye paper works, goodbye lazy me, goodbye painful yesterdays, goodbye silly me, and goodbye 2011 but thanks for all the things you taught me! :))

And here's another year so we need to have a new life, new friends, new journey, new attitude, new view in life, new problems, new love, new heartbreaks, new memories, new lessons, new beginning, new tomorrow, new beautiful days. New everything and wonderful beginning.:))

For my new year's resolution.. hmmm..

1. Have a new life.

2. Be thrifty.

3.Be happy.

4.Won't be late in school again.

5. Won't be late in school again.

6.WON'T BE LATE IN SCHOOL AGAIN! ahaha.. >:))

Well, Happy New Year Guys. Welcome 2012, welcome new me! :))
Godbless us all and BE HAPPY! Wishing you a fruitful and healthy 2012 :))

December :">

December - a month so filled with salubrious moments

Each day blooms as though life knows no trials, blots and torments

Zenith of the year is how my lips and heart describe it

Ever since I met its twenty-first child in a minute.

Like a brainsick, I find myself grinning yet hurt at times

Many do notice that all things around me flow with rhymes

Among a dozen of months, this one is the most bizarre

Real joy do I feel but I don’t know what the reasons are.

I thought at first it’s just because of the birth of the King

Even though deep inside I know there’s something more behind

Oh! Why do I loaf in this queer yet familiar setting?

Confusions and mysteries have kept on plaguing my mind.

At last I’ve learned the true reason why this month is so great

My year will end with worthwhile, historic horizons too

Ponder not it’s just about Christmas why I’m in this state

Obviously, my December is well lived because of you.

-- I still remember the guy who wrote this for me. :">

CHRISTMAS 2011! :D

I wish you all a Happy and Blessed Christmas! :D

Let's share our blessings and be happy on giving others what we have. Enjoy and have a Merry Christmas. :))

Singapore :))

Last Dec 19-21, we had a vacation in Singapore and we really had fun! :)) We arrived there at around 5 or 6 in the evening and someone picked us up, Anthony. He drove us to our hotel and we checked in first before having our dinner. We stayed in Fragrance Hotel in Geylang St. Lorong 6. We tried Chinese food for dinner and it was good. We ordered prawns, chicken, vegetables and fish which was still on fire when served. It was nice to try Chinese food but it's really different from the foods here. We went back to the hotel after and rested. It was tiring and the next day was really tiring also. We woke up around 6 in the morning and get ready because someone will pick us up at 8:30. My dad bought breakfast and we ate in the hotel. Vincent, another driver/tour guide, picked us up and the other tourists and drove to Universal Studios. The other tourists were also Filipino. We arrived at the Universal Studious at around 10 and waited for it to open at 10:30. There were a lot of people visiting too from different places. There were Japanese, English, Indians, Americans and others. There are also Filipinos that we met. We tried Transformers 4D first and it was really nice. They also took picture of us while screaming and our mouths were really big because we were screaming. We always laugh every time we see it and it was a  really great memory. Next was The Mummy which was also good. It was 4D also and scary. I remembered my mom when she told me she was really scared and won't try it again. Haha. xD We took pictures everywhere and enjoyed every attraction we saw. We had lunch at Ben and Jerry's and continued our day after. We went to Shrek 4D then to the Waterworld Show. The guys there were splashing water to the tourists and having fun while seeing them get wet. They had a little game and they were funny. The show was about a lost island and something like saving it from pirates. We didn't get wet because we sat at the safe zone. Next was Madagascar where we went inside and watched a little show while riding n a boat. We also tried the one like cable car and we fall in line like half an hour but the ride was only just for a minute. Haha. xD Then walked around the Hollywood and watched a show where the dancers were Filipinos. We also tried the roller coaster Human which was very very exciting. I felt nervous at first but when it was finished I was like trying to fall in line to the other roller coaster. I actually thought of backing out but when we were already the ones to ride, i told myself that I can do that. And because my little sisters were there too that was why I had to be strong. LOL. Because if I showed them that I'm scared, they will probably be scared too. Mom and dad didn't come with us because they were dizzy already because of the 3 4Ds that we tried. Haha. xD We had to go back to the parking before 5 because Vincent will pick us up there and he said that he didn't want to wait for someone who would be late. We took a lot of pictures and my cellphone actually run out of space so i had to delete sme songs. Hehe. After US, Vincent dropped us at the shopping district and instructed us how to go back to our hotel. There were a lot of malls and the items are really expensive. We bought bags, wallet and perfume. I bought a bag for 100$ and it was already discounted. We went to Takashimaya mall and Paragon Mall. After a long walk, we reached the hotel and it was really tiring. We had dinner at the hotel and rested after. Aly and Yana also switched room because Yana and Ate Anne did something else before going to sleep. I and Yana were originally the roommates but the second night it was I and Aly. Second night was done and the third day came. We woke up a little early the  because we still had a long day ahead. Another man, Sam, picked us up and the other tourist and that time they were from South Africa. I forgot their names but they were nice. They're actually teachers and they've been to a lot of places already. We went to the Singapore flyer first then to Merlion park where we had fun taking our pictures with the big lion. My dad shots were funny and my sister was competing with him. After, Sam brought us to a chocolate factory and Jewelry factory. He let us buy pasalubongs and buy other items for ourselves. Then we went to a temple and told us that if we want better grades, we should pray to one of the Chinese god there which was Confucius. We really had a long day and lunch was a bit disappointing. I really love trying different foods but that time we were not in the mood to try any. we had Malaysian food which we didn't actually like because of the taste. Maybe we were not just used to it but the chicken was good though. We waited for Anthony in the hotel and while waiting we rent a PC. I was facebooking when Aly used her secret weapon on me, 3 times, and it was disgusting. I wasn't able to get revenge but it was okay because I was not her only victim, Ate Anne too. So waited and waited for Anthony until it was 3m he was late but it was okay. We reached the airport and checked in our baggage and waited for our departure time which was delayed for about an hour or two. We had snacks and just sat around and surfed the internet. 5:40pm, we went to gate 5 and waited. The plane took off so late and some were already complaining. We landed at around 10:30 or 11 and Tito Tok waited for so long because we told him that we'll  be landing at around 9pm but actually get off the plane 10:30 in the evening. He came with a friend and we ate at Chowking in Eastwood. It was around 12:30 am when we reached home it was really a long day. We fixed ourselves then rested.

Those 3 days were memorable, so many had happened and it was really a vacation to remember because my dad and mom were with us. We had a good time though I still had bad times. Hehe..xD Now we are looking forward on Christmas and I know it would  be memorable too. So, tell you about it later and Merry Christmas! :))

Simbang Gabi :)

Tonight would be the 4th Simbang Gabi and we're happy to be attending it. It started last Thursday and would end on the 23rd. It's fun since I go with my sisters and the other night with our Mom. Hopefully tonight we'll come with our Dad and we're very excited. We annually attend Simbang Gabi but sad to say that we won't be able to complete it this year. That is because we'll be flying to Singapore tomorrow morning. It's our dad's Christmas gift to us. :))

I see different people and friends every Simbang Gabi and it's really nice to see them. We even meet new people and eventually become friends. Just like last year. I still remember how I met new friends and from then they became part of my life. Anyway, it's really exciting and fun to attend Simbang Gabi especially when Fr. Larry would tell the mass. He is a funny priest and I've learned a lot from him. He has jokes that even though I've already heard it a million times will still hit me and make me laugh. I like it when I can hear his homily and he will make us laugh while teaching us the reality of ife.

There is also Alay Talento every Simbang Gabi and it's nice to see different people perform for od Some sing other dance. And last night's performance was great. A group of people danced, sang and acted. They did well and we were great. And actually, Ate Anne is preparing for her performance anytime now. LOL. She would say every time a song will be played on the radio that it would be the one she would sing on Simbang Gabi. tsk! :)) I am happy and excited since this Christmas would be so memorable. This would be  a Christmas to remember for the rest of my life. My parents are here and everything is just perfect. 

Tonight, Simbang Gabi would be great since both my parents are here and hope we'll attend it with them!

12 Days of Christmas Challenge :D

Day 12. (Dec 14th) A picture of your Christmas tree.

Day 11. (Dec 15th) A favorite Christmas carol. Post an audio.

Day 10. (Dec 16th) An old Christmas photo of you.

Day 09. (Dec 17th) A favorite Christmas tradition.

Day 08. (Dec 18th) Your Christmas wishlist. 

Day 07. (Dec 19th) Plans for the holiday. Just brief.

Day 06. (Dec 20th) Describe Christmas in 5 words using adjectives, verb, etc.

Day 05. (Dec 21st) Give or receive? Explain.

Day 04. (Dec 22nd) A favorite Christmas movie.

Day 03. (Dec 23rd) Photograph your favorite Christmas decor in your tree.

Day 02. (Dec 24th) Draw a holiday greeting.

Day 01. (Dec 25th) A picture of you in holiday spirits.

- I'll start today! :)) 

December. :))

It's December! Yey!!! :))) The most exciting month of the year! :)))) Only 19 days before Christmas. Sooooooo excited! :D Anyway, the start of my month was great. Got to see my friends and spent wonderful time with them. :) School is kinda tiring too because of the busy schedule but I'm able to manage my time.We also have a Marian Camp on the 8th and it would be an overnight. Not sure if I can join. :| Christmas party would be on the 17th and after that it's Christmas break! Yey!! :))) Haha. :D

We're also excited because my dad is coming home on the 13th and my mom on the 15th. I know this would really be a December to remember. :)) We are also having our vacation in Singapore this holiday. It's my dad's Christmas gift to us and we're very happy. I know our Christmas will be exciting and fun! But I'm also sad because we won't be able to complete the Simbang Gabi. For four years, we are always attending the Simbang Gabi but not this year. But it's okay because my wish for Simbang Gabi was just granted, it is to have a complete and happy family this Christmas. :)

I also remember this month last year. It was different. Not because it's not that cold unlike last year, but because there was someone last year that really made me happy. :"> He WAS a friend of mine. :( He's sweet and caring and funny. He always make me smile and he always wanted to tease me. I met him not that long but it felt like he knew me very well. I don't know, he said he's already seeing me even before, I just didn't notice it. Anyway, he's a nice guy and I'm hoping to see him again this Christmas. :)

25 is ♥

It's been a while since I last hangout with my friend and it was good to finally see them again. And last Friday, I was happy to spend a day with them. Though we were only 3, I still enjoyed the day with Kilet and Nadz. :)) We were not really sure if we'll make it last friday but unplanned things really are the best. Nadz had a long break so she was able to come with us. I met up with Kilet at her school and believe it or not, it rained and i didn't have my umbrella, great. But fortunately she had hers and we were a little saved. We waited for an Fx to Sta. Lucia then arrived at around 3pm. Nadz was already there and we had a hard time finding her since she went somewhere to find food. Lol. We bought snacks first before going inside the movie house. We watched Breaking dawn and it was good. We had a great time watching the movie since all Nadz did was to insult Edward. Haha. xD I think she hates Edward that much. :D It ended around 5pm but we waited until it's next showing because we weren't able to see it's first part because we were late. We finished until the middle part then decided to go. We looked around the mall for a while and thought of playing at Timezone but I forgot to bring my Timezone card. Kilet also saw 20 pesos and picked it coz we thought it was a gift form heaven since we didn't have spare money. Hahaha.. xD Anyway, we spent it on Mcdo. :) We stayed there for a while to have a little talk and it was great, thanks to that 20 pesos. We went home around 9pm. We rode a jeep to Bayan and decided to have a look at the Tiangge first. I didn't like it at all because it's not as exciting as the Tiangge at the River side last year. Hmm. When we felt tired, we decided to home. Nadz had to go first so we walked her to the place where she had to ride a jeep. Then after she was off, Kilet and I walked to the terminal where we rode a tricycle. We reached their home around 9:30pm and they had a visitor. He was Ate Shane's bf. Actually I know the guy, he's my other friend's brother. They were watching a movie when we got there. We ate dinner, I waited for some time then went home. Tita Anna was already asleep and Tito Boy was out so I wasn't able to say hi. Kilet walked me out and waited until i got off. We waited for so long because all he jeepneys were already overloaded. :( I got home around 10:30pm I think. I as tired but happy. I enjoyed my day and i was thankful to finally see them again. :)))

-012512

Bonding :))

Last day (112411) i had a really good time with my friend, Nikki. :) We don't have class yesterday but we had a fair in our school. :)) It's Biztech Week so we're having a seminar about business in relation with spiritualy. I forgot the theme but it's something like that. We we're in the technical group and we did just a little of cleaning and that was it. There were guest speakers like Bam Aquino, who had a really nice talk about Hapinoy and entreprenuership here in the Philippines. There was also Ms. Carmina Esguerra from CareerCamp who talked about being ready in our careers. She said that we should always ask ourselves now and them if we are exactly where we want to  be and doing exactly what we want to do. :) Bam Aguino also talked about 3 numbers that we should always remember. 1.5, 2.5 and 3. 1.5 is the amount of resources that we are using which means we're consuming 150% of our resources which can be so alarming because we already consumed all 100% of our resources. 2.5 billion is the number of poor people in the world. Just imagine that on 7 billion, 2.5 billion of them are poor and yet we still consume so much resources that could have been used for all that 7 billion people. And i forgot the significance of 3. :( Someone also did magic tricks. I met him before and I've already seen him do magic tricks. :)) He was good especially when he turned the paper into noodles. It was amazing, we were all amazed even the professors. But some of his magic were flop. We've actually seen the the tricks on how he did it. :)) haha.. Anyway, after the seminar we stayed for a while so we can decide where to go. Sam wanted to go with me and Nikki but where we were going was out of her way so she decided not to come. Nikki and I went to Ligaya, where I'm not really familiar with, to look for his bf, Patrick. At first we were like crazy laughing because Nikki was really funny. I can see how shy and nervous she was when we entered Jollibee where her bf works. We ordered fries and float and ate it for almost an hour so we can stay there.We also planned on going to Robinsons so we can do something but we didn't go because Nikki really wanted to see Patrick. So we stayed another hour and talked about a lot of things. Family, friends and personal things. :) And we actually forgot the time because of so much things we wanted to talk about. Around 4 o'clock, Patrick already finished his shift. He ate first then we chit chatted a little then went home. :) I really enjoyed my day with Nikki. She was fun to be with and I laughed a lot because of her.I k now that won't be the last time that we were going to have fun so I'm looking forward to next time with her. :))

I reached home around 5pm and I was really tired but happy. Thanks to Nikki. :))

Where are you now?

It's always nice to have friends around you. When you're happy, when you're sad, when you have problems or even just once in a while. They are people who you can talk to with anything and you can share them just everything about you. But what if they're already gone? What if they leave? What if they've already forgotten you? I don't want to think about it. I never wanted my friends to leave me. I want them to stay, I want them for the rest of my life, I want them forever.

But where are you now? Lately I've been feeling so alone. No one to talk to, no one to laugh with, no one to cry with. I just feel so alone even though there are people around me. :( I hate this feeling. I hate thinking I have no one to talk to. I hate the fact that I have friends but I can't talk to them. I hate it, I just hate it! And I miss them, my friends. Laughing, joking, walking, tripping, shopping, eating, talking with them. I miss those times when we were still enjoying everything in life, carefree and not afraid of trying something new. Now it's different. We often see each other, we can't talk coz we're too busy with something, we have new friends and we have different lives now. It's so sad to accept that people change and as they change they forget things that really matters.

True friends can never be lost. I believe it's true. Though I may feel alone today, I know somehow there are people who are thinking of me. Friends who will always care and friends who will always be there. :))

Super Junior ♥

I still remember that exact day i first liked them. It was summer and they were still complete. Leeteuk, Heechul, Kangin, Shindong, Sungmin, Hangeng, Yesung, Donghae, Eunhyuk, Siwon, Kibum, Ryeowook, and Kyuhyun. These are the names I had memorized since I decided to know them. My sisters and I really liked them since we first watched their show Exploring the Human Body. It was funny and because of that, we've decided who are really our biased. Mine is Leeteuk but i really love them all. :) Since then we watched all their shows, performances and all. We supported their albums, songs and really wanted to watch Super Shows. First and Second Super Show, we weren't able to attend but luckily on their third Super Show, we were able to come and see them. It was crazy, I mean it was one of the best night of my life. It was like a dream come true to see them. 

They've been through a lot of things, problems and success. They faced trials that made them stronger and successes that made them thrive more. Some took another path, some left and others had other things to prioritize but once a member of Super Junior will always be a member of Super Junior. I will always be there to watch them, to cheer for them, to cry with them, to sing with them, to dance with them and together we will grow old. I love Super Junior and I will always love them. Forever and ever! That's a promise! :)

Super Junior05, Don't Don, Sorry, Sorry, Bonamana and Mr. Simple are their albums and each of these has great songs that really captures the heart of everyone. Miracle, U, Don't Don, Marry U, She's Gone, Sapphire Blue, Sorry, Sorry, What If, Shining Star, Bonamana, Shake It Up, My All Is In You, All My heart, and Mr. Simple are just my favorites. I love everything about them. 

Now they're celebrating their 6th year and I'm very happy for them. They've been entertaining us for 6 years and I know they will continue on giving us happiness as long as they can. My support for them will never fade and I will always be a fan that will love them until forever. I wanna see them again. Hopefully on Super Show 4 here in Philippines. Wanna experience again the joy and excitement i felt during Super Show 3. It was really unforgettable. Feb 26, 2010 will be forever a best night in my life. 

Anyway, here are some of their photos. :))

It's Over. :|

It was my grandma's birthday last Oct 30 and we celebrated it with the whole family. We prepared food and gathered at the cemetery. It's been 2 years since she passed away and we still celebrate her birthday. We prayed then ate and it was fun. I mean it's been long since our last get together and it was nice that we got to celebrate it with my grandma. :)) Anyway, like old times, we raced for the ice cream. Haha. We used to do that ever since. Though there were lots of it, we tend to race for the dessert. Lol. :) 

Then Nov 1st, we went to Loyola Memorial Park to visit our grandma again. We set up a tent and stayed there til night. And unfortunately, my uncle's wallet got lost. We think it was pickpocket because it was on his back pocket and suddenly it just went missing. Hmm, all his IDs were there and also his money. But it was okay since nothing bad happened to him. We stayed there til 9 in the evening, we actually planned to stay overnight but because of what happened, we decided to go home. It was also good since the bathroom at Loyola was far from our place so it was inconvenient for us to go that far just to pee. Haha. :) There were also few people than last year. It was not really crowded unlike last year and there wasn't much tents. I guess people already visited their loved ones last Oct 31.My Tita and her family also went there and we talked about some of our concerns since we only live with my Grandpa and Uncle. She asked if we have problems or anything. She's thoughtful and I like her. Hmm, what else? I really didn't enjoy Halloween coz we didn't do much of scary stuff and party like that. We just stayed home, that's all. It was boring. Didn't able to attend the Halloween party I was supposed to attend because of some reason. :( Better luck next time i guess. Haha.. xD

Now sembreak is over. Back to school again. :( Have to wake up early and have to do lot of stuff again.:((( Christmas Break please! Lol. :) It's over and we're back to normal. :(

Lee Min Ho

This guy just stole my heart. :">

Anything. :))

I've been too busy these past days watching movies and dramas. Sleeping past 5 in the morning and waking up 2 in the afternoon. I know it's unhealthy but I can't help it. Anyway, I'm just enjoying my sem break because for the next few weeks I'll be very busy already. Second semester is coming and I will focus more on my studies. I will have no time to watch movies or read books anymore which sucks! Hmm, there have also been problems lately but I'm handling them well. :) Now I'm thinking of ways on how I can make money. Tsk! I badly  need it so help me please?! Lol. And hey,  halloween is coming and I'm thinking of attending Trick or Treat anywhere. It's boring here at home so might as well find a party to crash.Wanna see different scary costumes and hear scary stories. My sis just had their Halloween party last night but I wasn't able to come. -___- I'm just gonna find another one to join. This will be great! :)) Later. Bye! :D

Who needs a boyfriend when i have a lot of girlfriends?? :)

102211 - Spent 17 hours with my friends. It was great though we were not complete. It was only Me, Marc, Meme, Larra, Abby, Charmaine and her friend. Norella and Crizza were busy with something else so they didn't make it, so sad. :| It's been months since we last saw each other that's why we were excited last day. First, they went to Larra's to pick her up and I waited at 7 11 in front of our old school. Then we bought chips and something we can eat. Then went to Marc's and believe it or not we got lost even though we've been there many times. Haha. :)) We talked about a lot of things and did catching up on things that are happening on us right now. We had foodtrip, laughtrip, movie marathon and trailer marathon. We enjoyed more watching trailers than watcing the movies. Lol. We watched 3 idiots, Spread and 1 Litre of Tears. It has 11 episodes and we finished it in 10 hours. That long. We didn't sleep, we just ate, laughed, cried and got crazy all night long. And in the end, there were only the 5 of us, Me, Marc, Meme, Larra and Joseph who stayed. Abby, Charmaine and her friend needed to come home. The 5 of us fixed ourselves in Marc's bed (which is kinda small) but it was okay, it doesn't matter. :) The sun was already rising by the time we finished the drama. We wanted to stay for a bit so we can sleep for a while but we can't coz we were 5 and there was only 1 bed. Haha. :)) We went home around 7:30 and unfortunately it rained and we don't have umbrella. Nice. I reached home by 8 and went straight to my bed. It was tiring but i really had fun! Maybe next time we'll be complete. Hope before Christmas we can have an overnight again. :)) So, friends are really the best! Can't live without my girlfriends :))

Sleep. Eat. Love. :))

Well, what else can i do this sem break? Sleep late, eat a lot and love all the way up. :) Been waiting for this time to come and now it's here. Before, I said I will be productive when sem break comes. I will finish my story, watch a lot of movies, hangout with my friends and sleep moooooore! But i guess it's not the case now. It's like I will sleep late, wake up late, eat a lot, surf the internet till midnight, have a midnight snack, and just stay home. I can't even open my story. :( But I'm reading manga and watching drama now. :) I know my planner is a complete mess but I'm loving this. I can do whatever I want.

Sleep, it's my second favorite thing to do. You know I'm great in bed, i can sleep all day. LOL. I can spend the rest of my sem break just sleeping. ;) Eat, my favorite thing do. Give me anything to eat and I won't complain as long as it's edible. I love sweets and pastas. Pizza, cake and ice cream are my best friends. :) Love, just loving my life. Reading my previous diaries makes me remember my past loves, life I mean. HAHA. It's like living my childhood days again. Reminiscing those sweet and innocent memories of my past. Well, so much talk. I'll stop here but I'll be back. Gonna sleep for now, eat later and love forever! :)

Girls just wanna have fun! :)

I will never forget this night because it's one of the best nights of my life. :)) Well, we just had a girl bonding with our mom. Picture here, picture there. :) It's so nice to spend a whole week with her, but unfortunately she has to go back to Palawan tomorrow :( We will miss here again. :(

She arrived here last week, Friday, and she agreed to stay here with us instead of checking in in a hotel. And it was a good decision because it was so much fun spending the last week with her. We went to DFA the next day (Saturday) to apply for our passport. There were a lot of people that we had to wait in line for an hour or so. There was also a problem regarding my sister's birth certificate so she wasn't able to apply for hers but fortunately my mom already took care of it and she'll be able to apply again next month.

It was a long morning so we treated ourselves at Mang Inasal. We ordered everything we wanted and we were so full after. Then we rested for a while before going window shopping. It was tiring because we took public transportation because our car is stuck in our garage because of the on going construction in front of our house. -__- But it was fun being with our mom for the whole day.  

And today was her last day here so we had a very long girl talk with her and just enjoyed the night taking our pictures together. It was really fuuuuuun! Best night! :) Just look at the smile on our faces.

(from left to right)

Yana, Ferlie, Mommy, Me (Dezel) and Alyzza

GIRLS JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN! ♥

The week went by so fast but we really enjoyed it with our mom here with us. It's really different when she's here. We can go out and have fun and do whatever we want and it's extra special because she's with us. Tomorrow she'll leave and we'll go back to normal again, meaning no mom again. We'll miss her but we know that she's just a call away. And hey, we'll see her again on December. My dad planned a vacation for the whole family and it will be a memorable Christmas for us because we'll be spending it out of the country! That's why we're all excited! December please! LOL. :))

A week so memorable for us. This will be remembered forever. :)) I love you mom! Have a safe trip tomorrow! :))

Life, life, life! :(

Well, I hate my life at this moment.. Too many problems. I don't know what to do anymore. There's a lot of school works, family matters, and everything. Plus, finals this week. :| I've been too pressured lately that I had no other option but to cry. :( I hate myself for not being strong enough to handle these things. Last day i cried because i had a fight with my sister. I know i should have not cried but i can't take it anymore. I have to cry once in a while to at least pour out the pain inside me. It's not like me at all. Before I used to handle the pain no matter how painful it was but now i cry easily. Maybe it's because it's getting worse. I don't want this anymore. Anyway, I know I can pass all of these. Just wait a little more and I'll be happy again. God is always here for me, I know that. So I'll hang on and let God do the work. :) I can do this! :)

Sembreak!

I can feel you now. You're getting closer and closer. :))))) I've been waiting for you, and finally you're here. Sembreak is just around the corner. We're half way done with our clearance and finals will be next week. One time big time review next week then Goodluck on our finals! :) I guess I don't have any problem with my grades this sem. But I guess before we end this semester we'll be facing a big problem. :( I don't think I can enjoy my break if I'm thinking about something. So I hope we'll resolve this before the end of the semester. I wish! For now I'm looking forward on seeing my mother and I'm so excited.She'll be spending a week with us and we'll be applying for our passport coz my dad is planning on having a vacation this Christmas somewhere out of the country. I'm really excited. Anyway, I'll be doing something now. I'm gonna finish my papers and reports now so I can spend the next days free of school works. :)) Goodluck to me!

October, be AWESOME! :)

Hi October, I know you will be great! :)) Let's work hard together. I wanna have fun this month. Sem breaks is coming so please be nice. Let's work hard for my finals and let's enjoy this month! :)) More blessing and more GV. :)) Less problem and less worries. :)) October, be AWESOME! :)

I'm trying to let you go...

Just when I'm trying to let you go, that's when you started to show up again. :( I hate you for making me want you more. I'm trying my best to convince myself that I don't like you anymore but you keep on reminding me that I still do. I don't want these feelings anymore. I'm tired waiting and there's nothing changing. You're there, I'm here. You don't talk to me and I don't talk to you. You tell your friends you miss me but you're not doing anything so you can talk to me. For once, I want to know what I am to you or who I am to you. I'm okay being friends coz somehow I know that's all we can ever be. But you always confuse me with your actions.

Signs please? I don't want to be confused anymore. It's hard, knowing I like him and he likes me but he's not doing anything. We talk but we can't admit that we miss each other. Crap! I hate this. Help please! :(( I wanna forget him but these feelings just won't stop. :( They keep haunting me. Last night I dreamed of him and all those things flashed back to me. That made it worse. Now I'm thinking of him again. :( I'll give it a week. If I still think of him after that, I'll talk to him. But if I don't, I wont. I will forget him for good. Deal! :)

092811 :)

Love Story :">

092911 12.50am

Just heard a story from my sister bout one of my parents' fight and it was sweet. :) I wanna have a boyfriend just like my dad. That even how mad he is to me he will never ever hit me. I want him to be mad at me or yell at me but he will never dare hit me. 

My sister told us that when we were little, our parents' had a fight that they were shouting to each other and we were just crying. She told us that no matter how mad my father was, he didn't hit my mother but instead the wall. I know he will never ever hurt my mom coz he's just a sweet and wonderful man. He's a gentleman and he respects women. And I want to have a boyfriend just like him. Someone who will love me just like how my father loved my mother. He will never hurt me and he will always respect me. And I don't remember anything about my father hurting my mom. All I remember is how nice my father was to my mom and how he treated her kindly when they were still together. My  dad is really a great man. 

I really love my dad and he will forever be my hero. A man I will always love, the man that no matter what happens, I will never forget. He will be my knight in shining armor, the one who will save me when I'm lost. The one I can always turn to when another man hurts me and the one who will love me truly. He's my dad and I know I can find someone like him someday! :)

The love story of my parents was really something. I still remember when my grandmother used to tell us how my parents met and what were the struggles my father went through just to be with my mom. It's funny I tell you. She said my father was like under a spell that he followed my mom wherever she go. I know they met at work. My mother was like a secretary before and my dad was kinda the boss, something like that. And after that my dad courted my mom until they decided to be together. (I skipped with the funny moments) And then, there were us. My older sis and me. My parents already had us when they decided to get married. Yana came next and then Alyzza years later. Now they're separated but they still act like they're together. I mean they text and call each other. My dad sends money to my mom and they still miss each other. They are crazy! I mean what's the point of separating when they still act like couples? Gets?! Hmm, maybe they just want to feel like teenagers again. LOL. And we always tease them but they say that it's impossible for them to be together again. I doubt that. With children like us, I know it's possible. Anyway, i just miss them so much! It's been a while since we last saw them. But my mom is coming a week from now and we're very very excited. See you, mom! For my dad, he's gonna be here on December. It's okay though, we can spend Christmas with him. And it's always nice to have him on Christmas.

A love story like this, a sweet, kind, gentleman and loving guy and of course me, a simple, kind, sweet and loving girl. It's gonna be perfect! :">

My day! :)

My day is ending but still no sign of the persons i wanna hear greetings from. :(  But though I'm having a great time with my sisters! :)) I'm happy and thankful for the greetings. Thank You guys! :)) We attended the morning mass then bought a cake. Went home, slept, ate then now i think we're gonna party. I'm having the best b*tches in the world! (as what they want me to call them because of Alex's That girl.) LOL. It's also my mom's birthday. The best mom in the world, I love you mom! :* my dad already called, thanks for the gift dad! :* I'm really thankful for my family. :)) Anyway, I still have 4 hours to celebrate.. and I'm still waiting. :))

happy 19th birthday to me! :">

Concert: All Time Low Live in Manila 09222011

All Time Low live in Manila - Sept 22, 2011

It was epic. Though we were a bit disappointed, it was still a great night. People started to gather at around 5 in the afternoon and we met Noyi. She's a first college student at UP and she's also a kpop fan which made us talk about a lot of things. Gates opened at 7 and we had the perfect seats. It started at around 8:30. Typecast was their front act and they played like 4 or 5 songs. I don't really know their songs. 

And the moment finally came as the lights go out and everyone started screaming. All Time Low opened their show with their song State of the Art and everyone went wild as they ascended the stage. We were screaming and singing along and I'm so sure everyone had a great time! They played a lot of songs including Do You Want Me Dead, Damned If I Do You, Forget About It, which is one of my favorites, Jasey Rae, and what's a party without Poppin' Champagne? Lol. They were funny throwing jokes and teasing each other. They also played Time bomb, which is a pretty good song, Guts and The Party Scene. And guess what the next song was. Who feel like dancing tonight? HAHA. Everyone danced along with the song which was pretty fun. It was followed by Sick Little Games. The last 5 songs were my favorites. They made me sing my heart out. Therapy, Remembering Sunday, Lost in Stereo, Weightless and of course their famous Dear Maria. \m/

It was an unforgettable night with a lot of memories. I really enjoyed it! All Time Low is ❤❤❤!

 There was also this one guy who we thought was high. He was like drunk or whatever coz he kept on dancing even before the show started. He didn't care what other people might think coz he just kept on dancing and rockin' out. Anyway, it was fun. Alex, Jack, Zack and Rian were awesome! Hope to see them again! :)

Here's a video from their show:

I Feel Like Dancin' Tonight! :))

This is it, tonight's the night! Let's rock with All Time Low. \m/ I'm sooo excited! Last day we saw them at SM North and people were really excited to see them. They did autograph signing then left, no other things. But tonight, we're gonna rock Araneta! See you later All Time Low. :) 092211

All Time Low ♥

OMG! I wanna watch All Time Low on the 22nd. :)))) Been waiting for this day and now it's here.. Sooooo excited. But i don't have ticket yet. :( My sisters wanna come too. Really wanna see Alex and the others. Tickets pls! I need 4. Lol. :) Anyway, hope we'll find tickets soon. It's a perfect birthday gift for me. :)

Retreat :)

We had our Retreat last Sept 5-7 and it was really fun. I mean it was a great experience and it made us realized some things about life. "The present of the present" i like this one because it tells us that what we have right now is a gift and we should appreciate it. 3 days were enough to enlighten us. The place was beautiful, it was in Cavite and we really had a long trip since we had stopover. It was just kinda sad because one of my friends didn't make it. Anyway, i should tell you more about it. Hmm, my partner was Nikki and we enjoyed each other. We talked about a lot of things in our room when we don't have our session. Kia also joined us and she actually spent a lot of time with us than with her roommates. Hehe. The food was also great, we eat 5 times a day, that would be breakfast, snack, lunch, snack then dinner. Our facilitator, Father Jayson was also nice and funny. He told us some stories about him and he said things that really struck me. The letter for my mom also made me cry. On our second night we did an activity. It was to say something to your classmate. Well, I'm really a quiet person and i don't talk a lot so it was kinda hard for me to just say something to my classmate. But still i managed to just say hi and something. Last day was tiring. we packed our things then had our last session and mass. We also took some pictures then went home. My sister fetch me at school so i didn't have any trouble going home. The retreat was really a great experience. I learned a lot of things which i know i will never forget. I'm thankful i was given a chance to participate in this retreat. Anyway, I've already said everything. Bye for now. ;)

i need a friend :(

i need a friend now. someone i can talk to. well, i think i have a lot in fb but i don't think they're interested in listening to me. :( just a friend to listen to my endless talking and someone who can understand me. i'm used to being alone but not like this. :( HAHAHA.. guess i just have to be strong, it will pass and i will be okay! i hope. :| 

    dear self, you will be fine and everything will be fine. just believe in yourself and have faith. don't lose hope. i'm here for you! :)

                                                                                                         sincerely,

                                                                                                 your other self :) 

poor me. :(

ung feeling na...

hindi naman kayo close dati pero ngayon parang kilala nyo na ung isa't isa.. :">

hindi naman xa camera pero everytime na tumitingin sya sayo napapaSmile ka.. :">

nag uusap naman kayo lagi pero excited ka pa din tuwing nagPPM xa.. :">

sabihan ka lang nya ng Hi parang kompleto na araw mo.. :">

nagLike lang xa sa profile pic mo pero ang interpretation mo "i like you".. :">

malayo kayo pero parang andyan lang sya sa tabi mo pagnag uusap kayo.. :">

inaasar ka nya pero para sayo naglalambing lang xa.. :">

gusto mo xang kausapin tapos mamaya maya may message na xa.. :">

ayaw mong matapos ung usapan nyo kahit alam mong wala ka ng sasabihin.. :">

hindi ka nagreply kaya nagsend ulit xa ng message.. :">

iniencourage ka nya sa mga hilig mo kasi alam nyang magaling ka.. :">

naghihintay syang makita ka kahit ilang taon pa ang abutin. :">

andon sya at nandito ka pero parang isang bahay lang ang pagitan nyo.. :">

pinapatawa ka nya kahit walang dahilan.. :">

at ung feeling na magkaibigan kayo at hanggang don nalang dahil kaibigan lang ang turing nya sayo. :((

Book: Rosie Dunne ♥

(Rosie to Alex on his wedding)

My “Best Woman” speech 

Good evening everyone, my name is Rosie and as you can see Alex has decided to go down the non-traditional route of asking me to be his best woman for the day. Except we all know that today that title does not belong to me. It belongs to Sally, for she is clearly his best woman. I could call myself the “best friend” but I think we all know that today that title no longer refers to me either. That title too belongs to Sally. But what doesn’t belong to Sally is a lifetime of memories of Alex the child, Alex the teenager, and Alex the almost-a-man that I’m sure he would rather forget but that I will now fill you all in on. (Hopefully they all will laugh.) I have known Alex since he was five years old. I arrived on my first day of school teary-eyed and red-nosed and a half an hour late. (I am almost sure Alex will shout out “What’s new?”) I was ordered to sit down at the back of the class beside a smelly, snotty-nosed, messy-haired little boy who had the biggest sulk on his face and who refused to look at me or talk to me. I hated this little boy. I know that he hated me too, him kicking me in the shins under the table and telling the teacher that I was copying his schoolwork was a telltale sign. We sat beside each other every day for twelve years moaning about school, moaning about girlfriends and boyfriends, wishing we were older and wiser and out of school, dreaming for a life where we wouldn’t have double maths on a Monday morning.
Now Alex has that life and I’m so proud of him. I’m so happy that he’s found his best woman and his best friend in perfect little brainy and annoying Sally. 

I ask you all to raise your glasses and toast my best friend Alex and his new best friend, best woman, and wife, Sally, and to wish them luck and happiness and divorce in the future. To Alex and Sally!" >


(Alex to Rosie)
"You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you’re doing, where you are, who you’re with, and if you’re OK. You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and protect you from your fears. You need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you, especially your flaws. You should be with someone who could make you happy, really happy, dancing on air happy."

"Twice we stood beside each other at the altar, Rosie. Twice. And twice we got it wrong. I needed you to be there for my wedding day but I was too stupid to see that I needed you to be the reason for my wedding day. But we
got it all wrong. I should never have let your lips leave mine all those years ago in Boston. I should never have pulled away. I should never have panicked. I should never have wasted all those years without you. Give me a chance to make them up to you. I love you, Rosie, and I want to be with you and Katie and Josh.
Always. Please think about it. Don’t waste your time on Greg, this is our opportunity. Let’s stop being afraid and take the chance. I promise I’ll make you happy." >

“My dear Rosie,
Unbeknownst to you I took this chance before many, many years ago. You never received that letter and I’m glad because my feelings since then have changed dramatically. They have intensified with every passing day.
I’ll get this straight to the point because if I don’t say what I have to say now, I fear it will never be said. And I need to say it.
Today I love you more than ever; tomorrow I will love you even more. I need you more than ever; I want you more than ever. I’m a man of fifty years of age coming to you, feeling like a teenager in love, asking you to give me a chance and love me back.
Rosie Dunne I love you with all my heart, I have always loved you even when I was seven years old and lied about falling asleep on Santa watch, when I was ten years old and didn’t invite you to my birthday party, when I was eighteen and had to move away, even on my wedding days, on your wedding day, on christenings, birthdays, and when we fought. I loved you through it all. Make me the happiest man on this earth by being with me.
Please reply to me.
All my love,
Alex >

 
— Cecelia Ahern (Love, Rosie)
 
Done reading this book. After 40 years, they finally found their happy ever after ending. It's just sad that they had to go through all of those things just to realize that they are really not just best friends. :)) One thing I've learned from this book is that, no matter what happened, no matter how long you wait and no matter how many people got in your way, if the two of you are really meant for each other, you will always find your way back into each other in the end. That's why they say, "If it's meant to be, it will be" :"> I really love this book and I love Rosie and Alex. :">

Midterms 08111311

Oh God! Hell week was over. But midterm exams are not yet done, still have two more this Tuesday. Well, i managed to review all the pointers but i admit I always screw in reviewing, hate it. HAHA. >:)) RE was easy. HI was a bit difficult. I love essay but it's not the same in HI, i mean she gave hard questions, always! FL, hmm, not that hard. Tourism management, crap! i forgot what i reviewed. LOL. Really. The enumeration part was a bit easy though i forgot some items and it's on the computation part that i was not really sure. Tourism Law, as always, mind fucking, it's not the questions that were hard but the typo on it made it harder to understand. And he's a weirdo i swear.. HAHA, okay, not really. :)) I guess I'll be able to survive this midterms. I wish. :)) Sports fest is always around the corner. Opening will be tomorrow and I know I won't go , you know me. :D But I'll cheer for our Org. :P Hmm, we're also half way done with August. Ber months are coming. I'm excited for December, guess our whole family will be here. Can't wait. :))) My birthday is also coming. Don't forget my gift. :))

i'll always be a TRUE friend. :)

Who doesn't want a lot of friends? Of course we all want a bunch of friends who will always be there for us. Friends who we can laugh with. Friends who we can run to in time of problems. Friends who will stay by our side in times of laughter and tears. Friends who will be there running with us when we did something wrong, and friends who we can share our secrets to. But we can never hide the fact that some are not really friends. Sometimes we just met them for reasons. Sometimes they just passed by to become a little part of our lives. And honestly, i don't really want to have a lot of friends, fake friends, but rather a few who i know i can trust and will never leave me. I've met a lot of people who i thought will be my friends forever. But i was wrong, people do change and promises get broken. It's sad to think that someday you'll lose someone precious to you, but this is life, we have to deal with it. Now all i wanna say is that I will always be thankful to at least have a few true friends. I may not see them often but I'm sure they'll always be around when i need them. And I'm gonna do the same for them, I'll always be a true friend. :)

only GV plss. :))

i wanna have an awesome and wonderful August! :))) gonna do everything just to be happy this month. no worries, no drama, less problem, less head ache. :) HAHA.. hope i can. ;) Midterms exam is coming, i guess it would be on the 17th. Opening of sports fest is also this month and what else? gonna update my planner i guess. I have a day off with my sisters on the 6th and we're gonna party.. a movie date i guess, dinner and everything.. hmm.. and i knew that would happen! HAHA.. i mean, i have this guy friend, he's actually a brother of my friend. nothing, i just thought of him coz last night he told me something and it really shocked me. HAHAHA.. xD can't believe he really said that, and he almost made me believe!! :P anyway, let's not talk about him.. gotta go first, i'll tell you everything that will happen along the way. :)

july. ♥

Another month is about to end, we're half year done.. time really flies so fast. i remember it was just New Year the other month and now August is here. :) a lot had happened this month, well, most of them were about me and my sisters. Yana celebrated her birthday at home with us and her friends. Alyzza also, she invited her close friends. 21st was awesome. I mean it's Uncle's, Tito's and Kody's birthday. Our house was loud because they party all day and drink all night. It was fun, my cousin slept here. We joke around and had bonding. We also won tickets for PROM's advance screening in SM Megamall and we're hoping to win tickets again for Captain America's advance screening. Hehe. We watched Transformers 3 in cinema, went to MOA, bought Ate Anne's dress for her interview and looking forward to our gimmick next week. :) a lot to tell for the next weeks, so bye for now. :)

old love..

have you ever wonder where would you be right now if you hadn't break up with your ex? i mean, if things worked out between you two, you think you'll be happy? or would you be thankful that you didn't let him go? i saw someone this afternoon that made me think that what if things worked out between us, what if we both saved our relationship and went on? i guess it'll be different, a way lot different. if we ended up together i think i hadn't met jay. if we ended up together i think i will never know how to lose someone important to me and i think if we ended up together, i will never miss someone so much just like now. things work in so many ways. you do something and soon you either be happy for it or be sad about it, you said something and then the next day you realized it is something right or something wrong, or you made a decision that either you will be thankful for or regret the rest of your life. well, this is life.

seeing that person again brings so many memories. i remember those days when he was still courting me. we can't go near each other coz other might notice us, we never talk directly in front of others and we never tell anyone he was courting me until they just found it out. it was funny, we didn't want anyone to know about it. we were serious then, but now, when i remember how childish we were, it just makes me laugh, seriously. he used to text me just to say "ingat", he texted me sweet messages and he used to say "i love you", actually i miss him. I miss how he forced me to say “I love you too” HAHAHA.. I won’t forget that. NEVER! it was funny! he was forcing me to tell him “I love you too” coz he never received a text from me telling him I love him too. it was sweet, I mean he wanted me to tell him I love him. anyway, I miss his smile that until now I can’t believe he had for me. and i never really imagine that he will ask me to be his girlfriend, I mean he used to tease me and bully me, but I guess things really work in mysterious ways. he was someone I am thankful I had. he taught me things like two opposites can be together, for real. he’s a kind guy, at first you’ll think he is someone you can’t approach but when you get to know him you’ll realize he’s not that arrogant. haha.. anyway, he’s cute, I guess. I like the way he tease me and talk to me, it’s like I was a guy too or something.. he was funny and smart. he was a gentleman too.  so, I guess I talked a lot about him. I just missed him. it’s good to see someone who had been a part of your life. someone that once became special to you, someone you thought will be the one, your old love.

Marry Your Daughter by Brian Mcknight ♥ ♫♪

Sir, I'm a bit nervous
'Bout being here today
Still not real sure what I'm going to say
So bare with me please
If I take up too much of your time.
See in this box is a ring for your oldest.
She's my everything and all that I know is
It would be such a relief if I knew that we were on the same side
Very soon I'm hoping that I...

Can marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
Can't wait to smile
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

She's been hearing for steps
Since the day that we met (I'm scared to death to think of what would happen if she ever left)
So don't you ever worry about me ever treating her bad
I've got most of my vows done so far (So bring on the better or worse)
And 'till death do us part
There's no doubt in my mind
It's time
I'm ready to start
I swear to you with all of my heart...

I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die, yeah
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

The first time I saw her
I swear I knew that I say I do
I'm gonna marry your daughter
And make her my wife
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die
I'm gonna marry your princess
And make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
I can't wait to smile
As she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter

-- what a nice song. I'll love it when someone make a song just like this for me. :)