One sided love...

Isn't it painful when you love someone but he doesn't feel the same way? When you're willing to do everything or anything just for him to stay? When you've decided that it's okay for you to be hurt just as long as he's happy? I know. We've all experienced that. It's painful and hard and you feel like your world is falling apart. But we all have to accept that there are things in life that are bound to meet but not meant to be together.

We just finished watching Hana Kimi Japan, again, and there was one character I was able to relate with. It was Nakatsu's character. He was with Sano in dorm 2 (they were close friends too) and the funny-happy-go-lucky-smiling character of the story. He was good in soccer and he was very supportive to his friends. He became close to Ashiya after she become a part of their school. And without knowing that Ashiya was a girl, he began to like her even though it would mean that he was a gay... Just imagine how hard it was for Nakatsu to accept that he was really a gay for liking a guy. Well, technically Ashiya wasn't a guy. But still he decided that whether Ashiya was a boy or a girl, he would still like her. 

Nakatsu while staring at Ashiya who was with Sano on the other table.

Thinking whether to kiss her or not.

 When he can't stop but be happy with Ashiya.

 Trying to kiss her even though he  knew it was wrong because she was a guy.

And this. :))))))

Nakatsu tried his best so that Ashiya will like her back but then what can he do when Ashiya already had someone in her heart? It was just so sad for him. He confessed to her, even though he knew that Ashiya was a guy and he didn't mind it, but then Ashiya told him that he liked him only as a friend. He even told Ashiya that he was just joking and that she shouldn't have thought about it much but can you feel how painful it was for him? That he lied just for Ashiya not to see that he was hurt. In the end he cried. :'(

When he confessed to Ashiya and told her that she can depend on him.

Telling Sano that he likes Ashiya and that he won't lose to him.

When the other's found out that Ashiya was a girl, Sano and Nakatsu tried their best to protect her. And little by little others came to accept that she was really a girl. But then she really had to go home. She decided to go back to America without telling anyone but then everyone knew what he was thinking. When Ashiya took last one look at their dorm, she saw everyone behind her. I always hate goodbyes but we all know that goodbyes are sometimes necessary. So, everyone said their farewell. It was Nakatsu's turn but he ran away. Ashiya just let him because he knew how he felt. But then he showed up again before Ashiya could step out of the school.

Telling Ashiya his farewell and trying not to cry.

 And even though he can't have her, at least they're best friends. :)

 

I really don't like seeing someone cry, especially guys. I just feel like crying too. Coz when guys cry, I know it's real. And this made me cry. :"(

And that hug just made me cry even more. :'(

 And this breaks my heart. <////3

 But then we all have to accept it... that life doesn't always go the way we want it.

 At least he knew when to stop. 

Though it hurts, we all need to let go somehow, someday. :)

It's really hard to have one sided love. When you have someone in your heart but can't have them. Or can't even tell them. It's painful. It's like dying every time you see that person with someone else. Damn! Why can't it be that when you like someone, it's automatic that they will like you back?! If only it works that way. But we should know that there is really someone out there for all of us. We just have to wait and have faith and pray and wait. And well, wait! :)

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